Shattered Dreams or Shattered Vices

This photo can represent someone’s desperation after their dream shatters or someone’s resolve to get rid of their vices. I love photos that may have conflicting meanings depending on who views it. I won’t state my opinion further and allow you to decide what you believe.

Dreams

I’m working hard to accomplish my dreams when I actually get down and do some work. I struggle to get to the keyboard but when I’m there I write away. I’m ridding myself of distractions and focusing on my passions.

Was able to write one thousand words in less than an hour in one sitting. Im writing about something that I love and I require myself to write that much on a daily basis. I fail everyday but I’m pushing myself to try. I have the dreams but I need the hard work. I’m developing it and will continue to develop it until it’s no longer a thought.

I don’t want to be 50 years old working at Walmart for terrible pay. I want to accomplish my dreams so I must work hard. I realize this but I do get lazy. However, as each day goes by I’m less lazy. Tomorrow will be the start of a new work ethic. I have something to prove to myself and I know I can do it. I just have to do it.

I’m off to do just that. Peace,

David

Simple Beauty & Purpose

I enjoy capturing the simple beauty of life through roses. Their beauty doesn’t last long but it ages well until the day it dies. It doesn’t fight the natural law of living. This shot as reflects my love for playing with shadows and the film noir genre of films. One day we will all die and that is a fact of life. I will not fight death but I will fight life to live long enough to get my fill. It scares me but it is something that I’ve come to terms with.

I hope to someday be able to capture models using this method of heavy shadows. I find women from back in the 40s and 50s to be highly more attractive. Anyway, this will be a goal that I will accomplish soon. Hopefully I’ll be able to do it before this year is up.

Purpose

I am here to tell stories/create, compete, dominate, and to travel. This is my self designed purpose that calls me into the put of fire called motivation, dedication, and discipline. It’s taken me a while to come to terms with who I truly am and what I actually want to do with my life.

Through this job I currently have I’ve been able to buy the things that I need. In a few weeks I’ll be able to buy a DSLR which I will use to improve my photography and my art. I did not pick an easy path but knowing me that’s the perfect way. This job had taught me a lot and I’m more motivated than ever to get out there in the world. I just have to take it step by step and someday I will realize that I am now running free on the path that I made for me.

Be honest,

David

Developing A Plan

Trying to admit my faults to become the adult that I need to be. To admit them is to grow and that’s what I need right now. I was exploring my neighborhood and found this pacifier on the ground. I tried to make the shot interesting as I took multiple shots from different angles. I like the little spiral of the strap leading to the pacifier.

I’m in the process of developing a plan so that I can make more progress in my life and so I know what to do almost every moment of the day. Been thinking deeply about my faults and ways to better my bad habits. It’s a slow process but I’m in this for the long ride. I know what I want to do but now I have to wait to make the moves necessary for me to rise to the levels that I know I was meant to be on.

My first mini-goal is to upgrade to a DSLR. I should be able to afford one in the upcoming weeks. Second, I will continue to write for a anime/manga based website before applying for a paid position. Third, will quit my current job once I find one better suited for me. That’s all I got for now but will be fine tuning it tomorrow. Not everything will be solved but I know where I need to be.

Good luck,

David

Working and Rest

Not my best shot nor a great one. I simply enjoyed taking this shot as I was exploring the college. This shot shows off the industrial feel that I talked about in a previous post. I will definitely return to this location and take more shots.

Work and Rest

Been having a challenging time adapting to my new schedule. I work four days a week from 4 to 1pm. When I get off work I almost always take a nap. I’m doing my best to adjust but I’m still falling asleep as soon as I am done eating.

It is physical work so I can understand why I would be tired but I know that for the future I want to have I can’t just sleep when I’m not working. I’m still keeping up my fitness goals and making progress in life in other areas.

I still have a lot of work to do but I can honestly say that I am improving and on my path to the life I want and the path of the strongest version of myself.

Need to rest now. Keep working,

David

I’ve Committed – My First Step

Today, I decided to upgrade to WordPress Personal plan. It cost more than I expected, but this move was to show myself that I am truly committed to this. I have one year to show myself what I can do. It will be a bumpy ride but I will not let the shadows consume me.

I was able to continue my 30 day+ streak of walking 2 miles everyday. I’m getting faster and actually sticking with it when I may want to skip a day. Can’t skip a single day. Got to keep pushing on and stay committed.

I don’t know where I am going and I have to be okay with that. I do know where I stand right now. It’s in a good place as long as I continue to improve and never get complacent. I aspire to be a creative writer and photographer a dream that many share with me. I, however, can’t say I’ll make it and they will not. I simply don’t know what will happen but life is full of uncertainty and I will accept the path I lay down myself.

I can only believe in myself and the love I have for my craft. I will bust my ass everyday to make sure I still at least a little bit of the light before it’s too late and I’m stuck at a dead end job.

I’ve jumped into the ocean but I’m still way above water. I will pick a direction and like Dory “just keep swimming”

Stay golden,

David