Daring myself to get lost in nature and simply breathe and think. Exploring has helped me further understand myself and my crafts. I enjoy being in nature without a care or any pressure to be anywhere. It’s a perfect place to slow down and smell the flowers.
This photo represents the paths I can take and the one I am currently on. Something is telling me to stray from my path, but I am keeping my head up and exploring the path I’m making. Not following instead I am making my path. This photo is another one I am proud of, I am thinking of adding a hint of blue in the shot. Will continue to experiment everyday.
The world is so ugly yet so beautiful. It is remarkable the things we can create but sometimes the artist is more flawed than the work they have created.
The world I see is darker than most but it has beautiful light from within. My art should represent that, as I often have forgotten that I will never forget the meaning behind what I create nor why I create in the first place. I love film noir and noh plays. I love dark visuals that reveal beauty. I settle with not having living models and capture the things the world ignores. I want to show that just because something is dark, doesn’t mean it doesn’t have light within it.
This shot is a return to what I experimented with in the beginning of this journey. I am shy/anti-social but I am breaking out to capture new subjects including live models. The floor in this building is highly reflective and the entire interior sees a lot of quality light. I wanted to capture both aspects as well as the pillars and I got my chance on a early day when no one was around. It was a trial and error process that I am proud of myself for.
Yesterday, on day 7th I failed to upload a post. I will not make any excuses and will accept this L on my part. I was sad apart this mistake, however, I promised myself it would never happen again. I’ve failed so much in life already at 26 years old and sometimes it feels like its too much. Self-doubt still haunts me like calling a teacher mom or being embrassed in front of the class because of the way you talk. I’m stronger than ever before because I can destroy the bad dialogue shortly after it begins. It’s not all the way gone, but I am working so hard on it. Always remembering my motto, baby steps into giant strides.
This photo showcases recent failure as I go back to explore old subjects with a similar style of dark/neo-noir images. I do like heavy shadows and darkness, I may not always get it right but I am doing work that I love.
Baby steps into giant strides,
It’s no surprise that I’ve been thinking deeply a lot since I started to walk more an more. I start to question things and have been diving into philosophy when I am not taking photos or listening to J.Fla. I have come to question myself as well, I learned more about myself the more I spen time without the distractions of television/Youtube.
I am responsible for everything, the reason I don’t write is because I don’t put pen to paper. I don’t take the time to upload as I chase after perfection or my percieved notion of it. I’ve come to stop that at this very moment as I come to the realization, I do have a problem. I’m the problem! I feel stronger by admiting it as if I am taking a baby step towards the sky. Myself has become clearer and with much action/practice I can truly become the man I am suppose to be. These photos reflect a new way of thought as each one repersents a new day that is shrouded by unexpected events. But if I am able to see through the darkness of self I can truly guide myself to the place I truly desire.
Do your own thing and live free,