Process

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A simple shot based on my influences in cinema. It’s an older shot but shows how I experiment with light and shadows. Took this with a Sony Cybershot.

Back after a long time away. Won’t be taking that long of a break again. Been working and adjusting to going to college as well. It’s a challenge I’m doing my best to juggle. It’s been one week so far and I handled it alright.

I have until the 7th to decide if I need to get rid of some things in order to be a better version of myself. Recently, bought Photoshop and Lightroom so I’ll be able to explore editing more. I have a bunch of faw files waiting for me to play with them on my desktop. I’m looking forward to doing so tomorrow afternoon. I’m commiting myself to my path and eliminating options to focus while also remaining open enough to allow myself to progress naturally through life.

 

That’s it for now. Peace!

 

David

Knowledge

Sometimes the best teacher is yourself and a book. Other times it’s getting outside and living life. I’m anti-social introvert with the habit of talking too low and fast, which causes me to stumble over my words. I’m trying to overcome it, but I understand it takes time.

Every passion I want to turn into a career is a gateway to another thing and can be self taught rather easily. The more photos I capture pictures and experiment the better I get. The more I gain pencil mileage the better writer and artist I become. It’s a slow process that I will allow to consume me. As an iron addict once said, “you got to be obsessed with it” – CT Fletcher.

I realized a while ago I learn best when I am doing something hands on. I don’t like to sit in a classroom all day. This was also evident at my job when I was forced to watch videos all day. I actually learned more in one hour on the floor than I did while cramming a ton of videos.

Reading books is great for you, but you need to make time to write your own life story through your experiences. Your life is your story and only you can write it.

Experience and put it your mileage,

David

Focus

Focus

The one thing about a nine to five job that I hate is not having time for anything else. Everyday but one did I fall asleep after work. I lose quite a bit of time because of that. I have had to sacrifice some things, but I will need to sacrifice some more. I need to realize I do have time to do what I want. I just have to get uncomfortable and push myself until the day I die.

At the moment, I’m focusing on my writing while doing what I can for my photography with what I have. It may take a few more checks until I can afford the one. I’m saving up for a Nikon D3300 or a D3400, depending on their cost when I have money. I understood what I have to do even when the path isn’t clear I at least know that I must take a step. So I’m focusing on taking one step at a time with my photography and writing.

I had to learn to budget better as well as how to buy what I need before what I want. That’s one reason why I’m not buying my camera out right. If I did, I wouldn’t have much left to do what I need to do. Even though a DSLR is one of those needs. So I should be able to take enough together after two or three if no big expenses get in the way.

So today, I’m starting to focus more on what I need and how I can better myself while working a retail job. I’m also searching for another job that’s more in the field that I want to be in.

Have fun,

David

Working and Rest

Not my best shot nor a great one. I simply enjoyed taking this shot as I was exploring the college. This shot shows off the industrial feel that I talked about in a previous post. I will definitely return to this location and take more shots.

Work and Rest

Been having a challenging time adapting to my new schedule. I work four days a week from 4 to 1pm. When I get off work I almost always take a nap. I’m doing my best to adjust but I’m still falling asleep as soon as I am done eating.

It is physical work so I can understand why I would be tired but I know that for the future I want to have I can’t just sleep when I’m not working. I’m still keeping up my fitness goals and making progress in life in other areas.

I still have a lot of work to do but I can honestly say that I am improving and on my path to the life I want and the path of the strongest version of myself.

Need to rest now. Keep working,

David

Talking to Myself

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Found myself lost as I was looking for a specific building. I caught this shot which proaprob shows that I wasn’t all too concerned about finding what I needed to. In the end, I was able to do what I had to do.

I love all the lines present in the shot as well as the shadows. I wish I captured this shot earlier, so that the light would be softer. I still enjoy the shot but I have room for improvement.

In two days, I walked around 9 miles. The more I condition my body the easier and faster it is to walk 4 miles + on one day. It makes each walk feel shorter than it is as well. I’ve been practicing visualization on each trip which helps me focus on where I want to go in life.

I’m waiting for my acceptance email to officially join a project. Doubt creeps in but I’m doing my best to change the way I talk to myself. It’s not easy but it must be done. I have found myself creating more and simply enjoying life more. I realized it’s a slow process after trying to quit so many times. Doing my best to become the strongest version of myself by getting into shape, both mentally and physically. It’s getting funnier just not easier. This is the path that I chose but one foot is still on the path of ruin that I allowed myself to walk through. Will take time for me to fully step off the path but I can feel my foot inching up a bit each day that I improve myself and do what I love.

 

Peace,

David

Moving on in Life

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Tired of living life as I have been, I can see where I will wind up if I continue to be lackluster at life. This photo represents my mind state and the path I appear to be on. It’s not easy to change but I am slowly. I am swarmed by doubt and I’m tiring. I need to try harder and harder until the day I die. I can never let up or I will end up with nothing as a nobody in life.

It has it end and it will right now. I am going to keep my head up and do what I have to do to be where I truly want to be. I can’t be this person anymore, like the picture above there will light in my life.

Keep on movin’ on,

David

109 – Spur

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No matter how much darkness tries to corrupt your path, you must keep on moving. I took this shot at my college during a busy time. I liked the shape of the shadows so I crouched down to take a few shots when people started to get into the shot. I simply used patience to create the shot that I wanted. It is a favorite shot of mine but I can see how I can make it better. Would have stepped back a bit so the light wouldn’t be as badly reflected through the glass on the right. I do like how you can only see one of the subject’s hands. It has disappeared inside the darkness thanks to her backpack.

Watching the NBA finals, disappointed that the Spurs can’t win a single game against the Warriors. I know they can do it but they defeat themselves. I have the same problem in my own life but I’m learning faster than they are. I took a step in a positive direction today, however, I need to step a bit faster. I was filled with energy and made more positive decisions than bad ones. That’s it for now but I hope you all have a great day.

Peace,

David

106 – Kross

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Was resting after playing tennis for two hours when I took this shot. No one else besides my friend were in the building so it almost has an eerie feel to it as if it was an empty memory. Not my greatest shot but one that I enjoyed taking because of what occurred before, during, and after the shot.

Will be putting what I want to accomplish down on paper and commit myself to what I truly want to go after for. I would suggest the same for anyone who is lost in the world and is struggling to overcome their situation and their failures.

Take note,

David

D81 – Up

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Exploring reality with philosophy and photography. Took this shot while I was preparing to leave the local library. It’s a place that I come to when I want to do some work without my back hurting from a bad chair and to get away from my four walls. I like this library as the second floor is for adults with the bottom floor for children. It makes it quiet and a more enjoyable reading experience.

I was interested in the light and decided to take this photo as I made my way down the stairs. It’s not always like this since it’s pretty rainy lately. On this day, I explored philosophy and my own mind. When I go to the library, I get work down. I might be there for three hours and get a good amount of work done in an hour and a half. I’m still exploring my options and the library helps wonders with that. I haven’t found the simplest solution but I am working even harder on it. I’m trying to remember the Bruce Lee quote “Feel don’t think” it’s harder than you may think to put into practice.

I completed a section of a free coding camp. I wanted to think about how I feel while doing it but I focused on doing the task and told myself I will think later. I don’t know if coding is my thing as I don’t feel nothing for it and have studied it in the past. I will continue to explore and will work even harder to get to the life that I want and to be the man I know that I can be.

Stay strong and feel,
David

Day 43 – Start

DSC05295.jpg Had a great day realizing what weakness of mine that I needed to work on. At times I take things too seriously and can say some things in the wrong tone. Working to rid myself of that weakness and speak from an open and honest heart while not attacking anyone.

This photo is my attempt to explore interior architecture. I’ve taken a photo of this hall before but not at this angle. My goal was to show contrast, invoke an emotion, and to work with lines. I believe I accomplished all three to some degree. I do some things I may change the next time I capture this place.

Steadily, I am seeing an improvement in my photography and art in general. It’s an exciting thing to noice especially when you pour everything into your crafts.