It’s been a while, I’m in a more peaceful state of mind and have decided to try a new approach. I’m more determined to succeed after taking time to think and to make decisions. Focusing more on my creative endeavors and allowing me to escape less from the reality that I live.
A while ago I felt like this. I was blank as the table but I realized that the lines were already there but I wasn’t reading between them. I have always known what I wanted to pursue but media and laziness had me in a state of inaction which caused me to be empty and at times highly depressed.
After self reflection I have made some decisions about life and how and why I should commit to these decisions. I’ve seen slow but steady progress that has encouraged more happiness and peacefulness to enter my life. I’m working hard to accept responsibility so I can become the man that I know that I can and should have been.
With that out of the way, these photos were taken in San Francisco at the Japanese Tea Garden. It’s a beautiful place that I would recommend anyone who lives in SF or is going to visit the city should give this place a try.
My friend kindly pours a cup of green tea for me as I take photos. It was starting to sprinkle as I took this so I couldn’t take too many shots. I really like how the water flows and all the little details in the shot. This was before we ate the Japanese sweets at the Japanese Tea Garden. I think I did a good job with composing the shot. Although, I may go back and crop the right side a little bit as I notice a little bit of a napkin appearing at the bottom right side. It’s nothing big but it irks me a bit.
Those hands belong to my friend, M, who became my friend two years ago after we took a tennis class together. He is my first real friend, he was kind enough to go to San Francisco with me twice and most likely a third time in August. It was thanks to him that my sense of humor has improved and its thanks to him that I’m not a total recluse. So I’m grateful to him.
I talk about how negative I feel about my current job but I obtained three friends. My friend, R, taught me how to ride a motorcycle and has spent a great deal of time with me outside of work. I introduced him to M and the two became friends as well. R did accompany us to San Francisco the first time. Hopefully, all three of us can go again. Shay is a recent friend of mine, who bonded with me over basketball. She is an older sister type that helps me out at work. Lastly, there’s TB who bonded with me after I asked him if he liked anime. I go over to his house often to eat dinner with his family and play video games.
Two to three years ago I decided to be more social which sparked my friendship with M which helped me be more outgoing. So I understand how to see small improvements and fully commit to something that terrifies me. My pursuit of increasing my social life has vastly improved. I’ve failure a lot but I am happy with where I am in my social life. It’s one aspect of my life that I don’t really need to improve besides maybe getting a girlfriend.
I failed a bit today but in failure I found some success. I was able to add a little more to my routine. I still haven’t launched my side hustles, I still have to do research and make a plan. I plan to do it tomorrow on my lunch break. Besides that, I really working on exercising, recovering, and shortening my after work nap. Once I can cut down on the naps, I will have a lot more time on my hands. I might be going on a motorcycle trip tomorrow so I will have to kind of cram things I want to do while I am at work. It will be a struggle, but it’s totally worth it.
So hopefully, I can make some results tomorrow. I’m not expecting to do everything but I expect to give my all to everything that I can find time for tomorrow.