A simple shot that I wanted to show, so I can show myself the things that I need to improve on. I’m doing well, been studying light a lot lately. Going back to learn the principles and more about my camera. I’ve been exploring the limits of my camera lately and have tried out new things. Some have lead to good results but I failed more than I succeeded. I will keep it up and keep on moving forward, no matter how slowly I have to go.
Going to be in San Francisco tomorrow, I’ll be there only for a day. Going to go to my first concert which I hope will be a lot of fun. It will be the fifth time I’ve made a trip to San Francisco this year and I am excited to explore a bit more.
Exploring new paths while doing my best to be dedicated to my craft. Trying to stop a bad habit by using YouTube in a different manner. I know if I try to cut it out completely it would be so tough and I would hurt myself with disappointment if I caved in and got consumed by the site again. I’m working on only watching videos related to my crafts. It’s difficult as I like to focus on the creative side but I know the technical side is a necessary evil. I have the 4am shift tomorrow so I gotta jump off and get some beauty sleep.
As I start to take the right path, the light comes flooding in. I was buying everything that I need to better my life when I got a surprise. My mother and brothers came to visit me. It was an excellent surprise, I am tired after spending most of the day with them but I am so happy. It’s been two years since I last seen them. I had a smile almost all day. This little surprise has stoked a fire inside of me to continue to pursue the things I want and to invest into myself. Gotta to apply myself. And I will starting now.
A shot of a subject that I’ve taken once before. This time I wanted a shot of the structure without a couple taking portraits under it. It’s pretty hard to get a shot of this structure without people swarming around it. I did capture a few shots of the structure without any human elements, however, I chose to show this one off. I wanted to showcase the structure and in this shot I really did. It’s in the background but it stands out and appears firmly in place. You have the small crowd of people, most of them are in motion while the others are looking around. I like this shot a lot, in a way you can say that with a shot like this I am practicing composition. I think I did a decent job on that part but I’m sure there is a lot of room for improvement.
Today, after my post-work nap, I focused on research and going back to read my past works. I read through my Unotaku articles and realized I made a few mistakes. I didn’t proofread them enough as sometimes the sentences seemed stiff plus I misplaced a few words so some of the articles didn’t really flow. However, I did like the content. I had some negative thoughts about my writing career in general after reading them. Now that I am sitting at my desk and thinking about the articles. I came to the realization that I am proud of the content and the work that I put into them.
The most recently written article was the best as I didn’t make the same mistakes as the first few, however, if I just go back and add a few more words in them they were be good in my standards. When I going through this little crisis, I ended up smiling and saying to myself that “it’s okay”. I may not write well enough to be a journalist I can improve or simply focus on becoming a better blogger. However, I will improve in both areas if I write more and focus on improving my written work.
That’s a step in a positive direction for me. I am a little worried that I don’t know where I am going but I have to get comfortable with that feeling. I have to through away titles and focus on what sparks joy inside of me when I do it.
I’ve noticed that I talk to myself more positively and when self-doubt creeps in I talk myself out of those negative thoughts. Which really impresses me now that I typed that out. I worked hard on improving my mental game and It was worked a bit. I’m not completely fixed nor have I created fully since I wrote “The Boy” short story a few days ago. But by writing this post, I am creating. I don’t realize that as sometimes I force myself to get up and write a post before midnight strikes and I fail again. However, the last few days it has been easy to simply get off my bed and sit down on my chair and get to work on this blog.
Another improvement! Also, I have continued to work a mile after work and have started to practice boxing which is getting me up and moving. I still force myself to do simple things before I am able to lay down on my bed after work. I am not satifised with the amount of improvement as like everyone else I want it to happen faster but I know that it won’t. I have to keep the baby steps up in order to grow into the man that I am suppose to be. Slowly but surely, I am growing.
A random act of graffiti that I found in an alley in San Francisco. It’s a simple shot that I take and honestly my favorite thing about is how the sign came out.
Today was pretty tough but I managed to get through it. I am transferring to a new department at my retail job and It is a mistake. I realize no matter what I do at this store I will be unhappy and unfulfilled with the work that I am doing. So I am actively seeking a new job while working hard on developing the skills I need to create the career that I actually want. Hopefully, in two months I will be far away from this job.
On another note I am seeing slight progress in what I am doing to improve myself and my life. Sometimes negative feelings try to creep in but I do my best to crush them. I take note of small improvements with every activity that I dedicate time to. I’m going to be starting to work on my mental game. Although I have been simply through reading books. However, I am going to dedicate time for yoga and meditation.
I plan to go on a motorcycle trip next Sunday and the weekend after that I will probably be in San Francisco again. I will be taking a lot of photos on both trips and will spare any space on my sd cards.
I am truly trying to figure my life out and admit to myself that I have already found my passions now I have to get my head out of my ass and stop being lazy so I can develop the skills needed to pursue them further.