Day 6 –

A shot of a subject that I’ve taken once before. This time I wanted a shot of the structure without a couple taking portraits under it. It’s pretty hard to get a shot of this structure without people swarming around it. I did capture a few shots of the structure without any human elements, however, I chose to show this one off. I wanted to showcase the structure and in this shot I really did. It’s in the background but it stands out and appears firmly in place. You have the small crowd of people, most of them are in motion while the others are looking around. I like this shot a lot, in a way you can say that with a shot like this I am practicing composition. I think I did a decent job on that part but I’m sure there is a lot of room for improvement.

Today, after my post-work nap, I focused on research and going back to read my past works. I read through my Unotaku articles and realized I made a few mistakes. I didn’t proofread them enough as sometimes the sentences seemed stiff plus I misplaced a few words so some of the articles didn’t really flow. However, I did like the content. I had some negative thoughts about my writing career in general after reading them. Now that I am sitting at my desk and thinking about the articles. I came to the realization that I am proud of the content and the work that I put into them.

The most recently written article was the best as I didn’t make the same mistakes as the first few, however, if I just go back and add a few more words in them they were be good in my standards. When I going through this little crisis, I ended up smiling and saying to myself that “it’s okay”. I may not write well enough to be a journalist I can improve or simply focus on becoming a better blogger. However, I will improve in both areas if I write more and focus on improving my written work.

That’s a step in a positive direction for me. I am a little worried that I don’t know where I am going but I have to get comfortable with that feeling. I have to through away titles and focus on what sparks joy inside of me when I do it.

I’ve noticed that I talk to myself more positively and when self-doubt creeps in I talk myself out of those negative thoughts. Which really impresses me now that I typed that out. I worked hard on improving my mental game and It was worked a bit. I’m not completely fixed nor have I created fully since I wrote “The Boy” short story a few days ago. But by writing this post, I am creating. I don’t realize that as sometimes I force myself to get up and write a post before midnight strikes and I fail again. However, the last few days it has been easy to simply get off my bed and sit down on my chair and get to work on this blog.

Another improvement! Also, I have continued to work a mile after work and have started to practice boxing which is getting me up and moving. I still force myself to do simple things before I am able to lay down on my bed after work. I am not satifised with the amount of improvement as like everyone else I want it to happen faster but I know that it won’t. I have to keep the baby steps up in order to grow into the man that I am suppose to be. Slowly but surely, I am growing.

Baby steps turn into giant strides,

David