When I first saw this shot in my photo folder after uploading it I actually liked the shot. However, the more I look at it the more I wonder if it actually works. I like the subject and the angle. It is the blur that makes me wonder if this shot works. Most of me is saying yes as it is my type of photography. I am weird and go against the grain. My goal is to be me and have my photography represent me and the stories that I want to tell/showcase. So in the need, I have to learn the fundamentals better but at the same time just do me.
Working on changing jobs and exploring my options while I am still young. I am focusing on that and improving myself daily. My life has improved but at the same time, I have more room to grow in certain areas. My social life is at an all-time high as I actually have genuine friends that I hang out with every Sunday and sometimes Thursday. However, it is my career that is the problem. I’ve been working for 7 months now at a retail store. It is a simple job if they leave us alone and allow us to work at a healthy pace. We often have meetings where they celebrate people’s work anniversary. One woman has been there for eight years and what she had to say scared me. “I can’t believe it’s been eight years. I looked up one day and eight years have gone by”. I really don’t want to live like that. It’s okay for some people but not me. So despite my inner self delaying looking for a new job because of all the people I connected with at this job place, I have decided venture out before it is too late.
I am hoping to find a job in the career field that I want to work with or at least a job that gives me enough time to do my passions on the side until I am ready to do them as a career.
Anyway, that’s enough for now. I have to sleep now to make sure I’m 100% for work tomorrow.
This shot features bushes and trees on a cloudy day. I edited this photo in Lightroom to be much darker in order to create a whole new image. I can see some of my mistakes and have some ideas about how I would edit this photo better. I really enjoy taking gothic-like photos as it fits my personal taste. Hoping to continue to explore Lightroom and photography more.
Getting ready to explore my options as my probation period ends in fourteen days at the retail job. I don’t want to stay because it sucks but some of my co-workers are amazing. It will cause me some grief when I leave, however, it is something I have to do because the company I work for really sucks and I know leaving will help my mental health. Anyway, follow your own path.
A type of photography that I don’t do much is animal photography. However, I am still exploring my camera and what I can do at my current level. Also trying to gain experience using Lightroom. This dog is known for being chill unless you have a vacuum. He stood still for me an was looking at me the whole time. I simply wanted to practice my photo taking and editing skills. I think I did a good job but I’m sure there is room to improve.
Took a much-needed rest day. Tested out my Xbox One and what it can do compared to my Ps4. Did a lot of soul searching as well and making some progress. Still, have a lot more to go over and I still have to study for a test that I am taking tomorrow. A lot to do but I am enjoying most of it.
A simple shot that I took when I was testing out my Nikon D3300. I enjoy taking photos of things people often ignore. This photograph is about my journey to discover my path but recently there has been a little breakthrough thus that little spot on the g in Egret fully represents that.
Been working forty hours every week at my retail job. However, I am back to my normal schedule. It has been a tough experience but I’ve learned a lot so far. I realized that I don’t want to be there anymore and I plan to leave. Honestly, I’ve been lazy and succumbing to sloth and gluttony. I’ve been working on developing the necessary discipline. From now on, I will begin to writing posts every day again. Which will force me to edit more and to take more photos. I won’t be writing about what else I will be doing anymore as actions speak louder than words.
My end goal is to live the life that I have always pictured. My current micro-goals are to find a new job, save more money, develop as a photographer and a photo editor, study better, live a more active life, and to develop a better work ethic.
I need to kill my bad habits tonight.
Peace and enjoy your journey,
A simple shot based on my influences in cinema. It’s an older shot but shows how I experiment with light and shadows. Took this with a Sony Cybershot.
Back after a long time away. Won’t be taking that long of a break again. Been working and adjusting to going to college as well. It’s a challenge I’m doing my best to juggle. It’s been one week so far and I handled it alright.
I have until the 7th to decide if I need to get rid of some things in order to be a better version of myself. Recently, bought Photoshop and Lightroom so I’ll be able to explore editing more. I have a bunch of faw files waiting for me to play with them on my desktop. I’m looking forward to doing so tomorrow afternoon. I’m commiting myself to my path and eliminating options to focus while also remaining open enough to allow myself to progress naturally through life.
That’s it for now. Peace!
Exploring while looking up. I took this with my Cybershot I believe, however, would like to take a new shot of a similar subect with my Nikon D3300. I think I made it too dark which is rare for me to say. Anyway, it’s an older picture and I can see very thing I can do to make this shot better next time. Surely but slowly I’ll improve till the day I die.
Working in retail gives me a lot of time to observe human behavior. A lot of what I’ve seen is negative as if people don’t know how to be respectful to others, products, or the employees of the store. I find so many half eaten things in random places like half eaten donuts in the freezer, half drank Gatorade behind cottage cheese, etc. Besides that, I simply think all day about what I need to do and what I truly want.
I do my best to muster energy to get things done but after this week I’ll be able to do a bit more. I’ll be working less and hopefully will be able to lose some more weight.
Stopping a lot to ponder what really matters to me. I fully understand what I need to do and how it differs from what I want to do. Likewise with how I know what I need versus what I want to buy. I’ve done well in controlling impulses to buy things that I really want.
The main reason for this, is that I understand what I need. I’m a shy introvert but I understood I need to be more social. I have made better attempts at doing so and it’s working for the most part. To do photography and writing I have to break out of my shell to do what I love. It’s not something I want but it’s something I need to do.
I’m sacrificing the now for later and spending my money wisely while saving up. I plan to invest in the future, but will start with mutual funds for a while. I’m doing what I am responsible for and slowly but surely my life is getting better. I like that more and more in my room is becoming mine.
Be responsible and have fun,
Sometimes the best teacher is yourself and a book. Other times it’s getting outside and living life. I’m anti-social introvert with the habit of talking too low and fast, which causes me to stumble over my words. I’m trying to overcome it, but I understand it takes time.
Every passion I want to turn into a career is a gateway to another thing and can be self taught rather easily. The more photos I capture pictures and experiment the better I get. The more I gain pencil mileage the better writer and artist I become. It’s a slow process that I will allow to consume me. As an iron addict once said, “you got to be obsessed with it” – CT Fletcher.
I realized a while ago I learn best when I am doing something hands on. I don’t like to sit in a classroom all day. This was also evident at my job when I was forced to watch videos all day. I actually learned more in one hour on the floor than I did while cramming a ton of videos.
Reading books is great for you, but you need to make time to write your own life story through your experiences. Your life is your story and only you can write it.
Experience and put it your mileage,
Realized that I may walk alone but I am not lonely. I don’t have a true friend only people that I talk to or meet up with once on a while. I’m fine like that, I’m an introvert and my photography seems to showcase that.
I’m working on myself and I tend not to have time to do much else. I do spend time with my family when I can. Now, I’m exploring my options and diving deep into the technical side of my passions. Will be learning the inside and outside of cameras and technical photography terms. Also working on my grammar and sentence structure. A rough road is ahead of me, but I’m looking forward to the challenge.
Going to be looking for a new job as well.
Always be willing to learn as you are willing to teach. Peace,
Where am I going? Where have I truly been? I don’t know nor do I fully expect to. I want to fully know, but the harder I try the less confident I become. I am a writer, photographer, mentor, and artist. It’s out there in the universe, I’m trying but I could try even harder.
I haven’t brushed the lips of success yet. I do get discouraged but I keep going. I understand that if I stop then I might as well be a empty shell working a dead end job and never leaving to explore the world.
It’s hurt but that’s life. Traveling down the only road that I’ve ever known..