Doing what I’m suppose to do. I am having a hard time balancing passions, work, and college. I need to work on my body more so I can physically do more. It’s a real challenge since I’m on my feet 100% of the time at work and constantly moving. It does help me so in the end, I need to work on my diet and everything that I do after work.
I’m a photographer and a writer, I’ve given myself six months to show some results or I’ll set both down and move on. They will forever be my passions but I understand not every passion can be successfully made into a career. This is my one shot and I have to understand that and get uncomfortable to truly succeed in this field.
Time for sleep…Peace,
The one thing about a nine to five job that I hate is not having time for anything else. Everyday but one did I fall asleep after work. I lose quite a bit of time because of that. I have had to sacrifice some things, but I will need to sacrifice some more. I need to realize I do have time to do what I want. I just have to get uncomfortable and push myself until the day I die.
At the moment, I’m focusing on my writing while doing what I can for my photography with what I have. It may take a few more checks until I can afford the one. I’m saving up for a Nikon D3300 or a D3400, depending on their cost when I have money. I understood what I have to do even when the path isn’t clear I at least know that I must take a step. So I’m focusing on taking one step at a time with my photography and writing.
I had to learn to budget better as well as how to buy what I need before what I want. That’s one reason why I’m not buying my camera out right. If I did, I wouldn’t have much left to do what I need to do. Even though a DSLR is one of those needs. So I should be able to take enough together after two or three if no big expenses get in the way.
So today, I’m starting to focus more on what I need and how I can better myself while working a retail job. I’m also searching for another job that’s more in the field that I want to be in.
Gotta Take the Shot
To get anywhere in life, you must take a shot at whatever you are trying to do. “You miss every shot you don’t take”. It takes dedication to the craft as much Michael Jordan and basketball or Al Pacino and acting. It may not happen over night, but at some point one of your shots will make it in.
I have to realize this as I prepare to buy my first DSLR. I started off with a Mario camera then to point and shots before using cellphone photography then evetually to a superzoom camera. I’ve used DSLRs before and I’m like an addict. I see one and I have to play with it. I get lost as I capture the world almost all people ignore through the unique viewfinder called my eyes.
I’m dedicated to my craft and willing to invest into my passions. Buying a domain for this site is just the beginning. I’m at the line preparing to take my shot as it’s my turn.
Take your shot,
This photo can represent someone’s desperation after their dream shatters or someone’s resolve to get rid of their vices. I love photos that may have conflicting meanings depending on who views it. I won’t state my opinion further and allow you to decide what you believe.
I’m working hard to accomplish my dreams when I actually get down and do some work. I struggle to get to the keyboard but when I’m there I write away. I’m ridding myself of distractions and focusing on my passions.
Was able to write one thousand words in less than an hour in one sitting. Im writing about something that I love and I require myself to write that much on a daily basis. I fail everyday but I’m pushing myself to try. I have the dreams but I need the hard work. I’m developing it and will continue to develop it until it’s no longer a thought.
I don’t want to be 50 years old working at Walmart for terrible pay. I want to accomplish my dreams so I must work hard. I realize this but I do get lazy. However, as each day goes by I’m less lazy. Tomorrow will be the start of a new work ethic. I have something to prove to myself and I know I can do it. I just have to do it.
I’m off to do just that. Peace,
I enjoy capturing the simple beauty of life through roses. Their beauty doesn’t last long but it ages well until the day it dies. It doesn’t fight the natural law of living. This shot as reflects my love for playing with shadows and the film noir genre of films. One day we will all die and that is a fact of life. I will not fight death but I will fight life to live long enough to get my fill. It scares me but it is something that I’ve come to terms with.
I hope to someday be able to capture models using this method of heavy shadows. I find women from back in the 40s and 50s to be highly more attractive. Anyway, this will be a goal that I will accomplish soon. Hopefully I’ll be able to do it before this year is up.
I am here to tell stories/create, compete, dominate, and to travel. This is my self designed purpose that calls me into the put of fire called motivation, dedication, and discipline. It’s taken me a while to come to terms with who I truly am and what I actually want to do with my life.
Through this job I currently have I’ve been able to buy the things that I need. In a few weeks I’ll be able to buy a DSLR which I will use to improve my photography and my art. I did not pick an easy path but knowing me that’s the perfect way. This job had taught me a lot and I’m more motivated than ever to get out there in the world. I just have to take it step by step and someday I will realize that I am now running free on the path that I made for me.
Trying to admit my faults to become the adult that I need to be. To admit them is to grow and that’s what I need right now. I was exploring my neighborhood and found this pacifier on the ground. I tried to make the shot interesting as I took multiple shots from different angles. I like the little spiral of the strap leading to the pacifier.
I’m in the process of developing a plan so that I can make more progress in my life and so I know what to do almost every moment of the day. Been thinking deeply about my faults and ways to better my bad habits. It’s a slow process but I’m in this for the long ride. I know what I want to do but now I have to wait to make the moves necessary for me to rise to the levels that I know I was meant to be on.
My first mini-goal is to upgrade to a DSLR. I should be able to afford one in the upcoming weeks. Second, I will continue to write for a anime/manga based website before applying for a paid position. Third, will quit my current job once I find one better suited for me. That’s all I got for now but will be fine tuning it tomorrow. Not everything will be solved but I know where I need to be.
Not my best shot nor a great one. I simply enjoyed taking this shot as I was exploring the college. This shot shows off the industrial feel that I talked about in a previous post. I will definitely return to this location and take more shots.
Work and Rest
Been having a challenging time adapting to my new schedule. I work four days a week from 4 to 1pm. When I get off work I almost always take a nap. I’m doing my best to adjust but I’m still falling asleep as soon as I am done eating.
It is physical work so I can understand why I would be tired but I know that for the future I want to have I can’t just sleep when I’m not working. I’m still keeping up my fitness goals and making progress in life in other areas.
I still have a lot of work to do but I can honestly say that I am improving and on my path to the life I want and the path of the strongest version of myself.
Need to rest now. Keep working,
Today, I decided to upgrade to WordPress Personal plan. It cost more than I expected, but this move was to show myself that I am truly committed to this. I have one year to show myself what I can do. It will be a bumpy ride but I will not let the shadows consume me.
I was able to continue my 30 day+ streak of walking 2 miles everyday. I’m getting faster and actually sticking with it when I may want to skip a day. Can’t skip a single day. Got to keep pushing on and stay committed.
I don’t know where I am going and I have to be okay with that. I do know where I stand right now. It’s in a good place as long as I continue to improve and never get complacent. I aspire to be a creative writer and photographer a dream that many share with me. I, however, can’t say I’ll make it and they will not. I simply don’t know what will happen but life is full of uncertainty and I will accept the path I lay down myself.
I can only believe in myself and the love I have for my craft. I will bust my ass everyday to make sure I still at least a little bit of the light before it’s too late and I’m stuck at a dead end job.
I’ve jumped into the ocean but I’m still way above water. I will pick a direction and like Dory “just keep swimming”
When to Go?
I’m looking at my situation from a different angle than normal. Hence this photo taken at a low angle. This Hall receives a lot of traffic but not once have I seen bend down and take a shot in this building besides myself.
Anyway, I enjoy the interior design of this building. The floors are highly reflective and the windows let in good light. What you don’t see is that the architecture teachers made sure that the building was designed in a way that you can see some of the inner workings. I’ll try to capture a photo in the future to showcase the cold beauty of this place.
I’m exploring the option of buying the domain name for this website in order to showcase my work and have more control. Also exploring buying the domain name for a blog that I may monetize in the future. I’m still thinking about both options but I have given myself until tomorrow to think about it.
Common questions ring inside my mind. “Am I ready?” “Should I monetize a blog from the get-go?” Yada yada. Now that I have steady money coming in I have more difficult choices to make. I am leaning towards yes to the questions I asked myself. As I aspire to be a writer and a photographer. I don’t have official experience in either one. But if I do what I want I will get some experience that may get me to where I want to go.
After writing this I decided to say yes and I will set my plan in motion tomorrow after I get off work. I’ll do a bit more research and complete the cosmetic stuff. It takes little acts of courage daily to truly go where you want to go.
Besides that, I will be posting everyday on this blog from now. It will be challenging but it is apart of what I truly love to do.
About time to go.
Live free and happy,
Understanding that I must take ownership for my life and all the things I’ve done is something that truly has hit me since I started working this new job. I am cutting things out that I don’t need since I just don’t have any time as I am working four am to one pm shifts for four days a week. I only have about eight hours every day when I come home after work to do what I need to. I am still adjusting to the job so I often take a two-hour nap.
I really don’t want this job but I’m keeping it up until I am able to find a new job. Hopefully, it will be in a career field that I actually want to work in. For now, I am doing my best to do what I need to at work to make money and raise capital for the things that I truly want to do. It’s not easy but no one said that it would be. I am at fault and I accept that. However, I will not simply lay on back and accept life. I will raise to do the things that I want to do before I open my eyes and I’ve spent my whole life working this job.
My goal is to be able to take my photography and my writing and turn them into a full-time career. I’m starting by writing for an anime-based website for free and will be hosting my own anime/manga blog very soon while still maintaining this blog. I will probably buy a domain name for this site and make it truly mine. I have to do some more research but I will make a decision by tomorrow.
I am in the shadows now but with small acts of confidence, I will shine. As I love this!
Do what you love and want you can truly be great it,