A simple shot based on my influences in cinema. It’s an older shot but shows how I experiment with light and shadows. Took this with a Sony Cybershot.
Back after a long time away. Won’t be taking that long of a break again. Been working and adjusting to going to college as well. It’s a challenge I’m doing my best to juggle. It’s been one week so far and I handled it alright.
I have until the 7th to decide if I need to get rid of some things in order to be a better version of myself. Recently, bought Photoshop and Lightroom so I’ll be able to explore editing more. I have a bunch of faw files waiting for me to play with them on my desktop. I’m looking forward to doing so tomorrow afternoon. I’m commiting myself to my path and eliminating options to focus while also remaining open enough to allow myself to progress naturally through life.
That’s it for now. Peace!
Exploring while looking up. I took this with my Cybershot I believe, however, would like to take a new shot of a similar subect with my Nikon D3300. I think I made it too dark which is rare for me to say. Anyway, it’s an older picture and I can see very thing I can do to make this shot better next time. Surely but slowly I’ll improve till the day I die.
Working in retail gives me a lot of time to observe human behavior. A lot of what I’ve seen is negative as if people don’t know how to be respectful to others, products, or the employees of the store. I find so many half eaten things in random places like half eaten donuts in the freezer, half drank Gatorade behind cottage cheese, etc. Besides that, I simply think all day about what I need to do and what I truly want.
I do my best to muster energy to get things done but after this week I’ll be able to do a bit more. I’ll be working less and hopefully will be able to lose some more weight.
Sometimes the best teacher is yourself and a book. Other times it’s getting outside and living life. I’m anti-social introvert with the habit of talking too low and fast, which causes me to stumble over my words. I’m trying to overcome it, but I understand it takes time.
Every passion I want to turn into a career is a gateway to another thing and can be self taught rather easily. The more photos I capture pictures and experiment the better I get. The more I gain pencil mileage the better writer and artist I become. It’s a slow process that I will allow to consume me. As an iron addict once said, “you got to be obsessed with it” – CT Fletcher.
I realized a while ago I learn best when I am doing something hands on. I don’t like to sit in a classroom all day. This was also evident at my job when I was forced to watch videos all day. I actually learned more in one hour on the floor than I did while cramming a ton of videos.
Reading books is great for you, but you need to make time to write your own life story through your experiences. Your life is your story and only you can write it.
Experience and put it your mileage,
Realized that I may walk alone but I am not lonely. I don’t have a true friend only people that I talk to or meet up with once on a while. I’m fine like that, I’m an introvert and my photography seems to showcase that.
I’m working on myself and I tend not to have time to do much else. I do spend time with my family when I can. Now, I’m exploring my options and diving deep into the technical side of my passions. Will be learning the inside and outside of cameras and technical photography terms. Also working on my grammar and sentence structure. A rough road is ahead of me, but I’m looking forward to the challenge.
Going to be looking for a new job as well.
Always be willing to learn as you are willing to teach. Peace,
Where am I going? Where have I truly been? I don’t know nor do I fully expect to. I want to fully know, but the harder I try the less confident I become. I am a writer, photographer, mentor, and artist. It’s out there in the universe, I’m trying but I could try even harder.
I haven’t brushed the lips of success yet. I do get discouraged but I keep going. I understand that if I stop then I might as well be a empty shell working a dead end job and never leaving to explore the world.
It’s hurt but that’s life. Traveling down the only road that I’ve ever known..
Doing what I’m suppose to do. I am having a hard time balancing passions, work, and college. I need to work on my body more so I can physically do more. It’s a real challenge since I’m on my feet 100% of the time at work and constantly moving. It does help me so in the end, I need to work on my diet and everything that I do after work.
I’m a photographer and a writer, I’ve given myself six months to show some results or I’ll set both down and move on. They will forever be my passions but I understand not every passion can be successfully made into a career. This is my one shot and I have to understand that and get uncomfortable to truly succeed in this field.
Time for sleep…Peace,
The one thing about a nine to five job that I hate is not having time for anything else. Everyday but one did I fall asleep after work. I lose quite a bit of time because of that. I have had to sacrifice some things, but I will need to sacrifice some more. I need to realize I do have time to do what I want. I just have to get uncomfortable and push myself until the day I die.
At the moment, I’m focusing on my writing while doing what I can for my photography with what I have. It may take a few more checks until I can afford the one. I’m saving up for a Nikon D3300 or a D3400, depending on their cost when I have money. I understood what I have to do even when the path isn’t clear I at least know that I must take a step. So I’m focusing on taking one step at a time with my photography and writing.
I had to learn to budget better as well as how to buy what I need before what I want. That’s one reason why I’m not buying my camera out right. If I did, I wouldn’t have much left to do what I need to do. Even though a DSLR is one of those needs. So I should be able to take enough together after two or three if no big expenses get in the way.
So today, I’m starting to focus more on what I need and how I can better myself while working a retail job. I’m also searching for another job that’s more in the field that I want to be in.
Walked four miles, played tennis, and ate some really good food today. Was able to treat a friend to a meal and got some nice frozen Greek yogurt. It was a nice change of pace from simply resting. However, today I will be having a rest day so my body can recover from work and tennis.
Got some good shots as well. Will be editing later today. Did some food and street photography. I normally don’t do food photography but decided to snap a few shots. Every shot is a learning process. I’m doing my best to learn as efficiency as I possibly can. Besides that, working hard at improving myself and my life.
As I walking to my college I peered down at something shining under the blazing sun. It was a pink iPhone badly bent and the first thing that came to my mind was “someone upgraded”. In this field, I always see discarded materials like bras, phones, food, mattresses, etc. It would be a beautiful place if this field was cleaned up.
I think a lot of people are lazy and unkind. I was walking into a Walmart and saw a woman throw some trash on the ground while she was inches away from a trash can. As someone who works in retail, I see a lot of disgusting behaviors. People will drink soda then leave it behind something or chew seeds and spit them on the ground. They may just be kind people outside of this, but these kind of behaviors are a clear indicator of a personality flaw.
This is the only planet we can live on for now and we trash it. I do my part to recycle and pick up litter. It amazes me at how many don’t do this.
Kindness and Work
Do not be nice as there is always a hidden motive. Kindness comes from within and doesnt stray like being nice. I have to smile at work and help people. I am required to do it, but at some point it became genuine.
Besides that, I was able to do more today after work than normal, however, I’m still struggling with adapting to my sleep schedule. I have to be in bed at 8 and asleep by 9:30 to get up at 3am. I only slept 2 hours which made work that much harder. It’s eight now and I’m finishing up what I need to do. Hopefully, I can knock out soon so I can be a better me tomorrow.