The worst thing about me is that I never truly given my all to something. I was afraid to fail or that was never good enough. So I looked for excuses to use for why I didn’t pursue something wholeheartedly. Read an article about the UFC Jon Jones who is considered by many to be the greatest MMA fighter of all time. He used drugs and alcohol as his prepared excuse if he ever lost any of his fights.
Even a man on top of his career field felt the need to come up with excuses. I really don’t want to live a half assed life full of regrets to match the repugnant excuses. It’s not too late for me to switch things around. I am doing just that.
2021 is my year. I’ve already got rid of some bad vices but I still have a lot of work to do. I’m chasing the greatest version of myself. In this year, I won’t plan it out anymore. I will simply carve myself into the being I have always desired to be. I’m reading, learning, watching, and listening to the world around me. Learning myself and truly following my principles.
No more excuses! I have a roof over my head, food in my belly, a car to take me places, and a bed to rest upon. I have all that I need to succeed. I just have to embrace the fear and make it my b$tch.
I love photography and expressing myself. Both require me to explore the world. This year I will pursue photography and becoming the best version of myself wholeheartedly. I will not stop even when I reach my goals. I’ll simply sit down and write out bigger goals.
A shot of my friend posing in front of a wall of flowers at a milk tea cafe in Sacramento. We were poking fun at all the girls posing with their drinks infront of the wall. You would be shocked at the number of girls that were doing that. As soon as my friend moved away, a few more girls lined up to take selfies in front of the wall of flowers. It’s thanks to my friends that I’ve been able to practice taking portraits and becoming more confident as a photographer.
Working harder to improve myself and my life. I’ve applied to ton of jobs with very little interaction. I do have an interview on Tuesday and another one on Thursday. The needle is moving, I hope to hear back from a few more jobs before I go on Tuesday’s interview.
Haven’t found the time to study photography or editing but it’s in my queue for tomorrow especially since I’ll be off on Tuesday. Been sleeping a lot after work which leaves me very little time to get things done. It’s a habit that I’m trying to stop which very little improvement. However, once I gradually get back into shape I’m sure things will improve.
Changed my diet a bit, I’ve noticed that it improved my energy levels at work. I’m still experimenting as what I’m doing is just a temporary thing as I continue to find what works for me. I’ll be forcing myself to better my diet with fruits and veggies. It’s going to be hard but I want the results so I must do the actually work.
A shot I took while taking photos of the beautiful water in San Francisco. I’ve reviewed my photos from my trips and I have noticed what I need to improve on. I will focus on improving my photos especially developing my post-editing skills.
Took my new lens out for a spin early in the morning. I played with it and enjoyed the process. Been a while since I took my camera out so it felt like a breath of fresh air. Might post some of the photos here once I upload them to my Google Drive but we will see. I plan to do another photo walk on my next day off which will be Tuesday.
I’m focusing on gaining skills and my health during this world event. Taking time to read and improve my mental health. Now, I will just need to focus more on my physical health so I can truly become the best version of myself.
Just a quick post as I felt writing but have to get prepared for work now.
A shot of my friend exploring art and trying to find an exit. This was a send off trip as he shortly left to join the military. So this is a great photo to represent a good time and to showcase his departure. Might try to re-edit this shot and work on the walls.
My new camera lens came in and I’m happy with it so far. Will take better photos of it tomorrow and showcase it. Going to break it in on a photo walk. I am more willing to invest into my passions and myself. I normally don’t because I don’t like to see my bank account balance go down. Haha I’m sure that’s most people but I’ve decided not to wait and work hard towards my goals.
Going to be buying a zoom lens next and a new phone next. I’m not too happy with the kit zoom lens I have and my phone is shitty at best. However, will space out my purchases in order to keep my finances healthy especially during these current times.
Viewed a webinar about investing yesterday and set a goal for my investing. Which is to earn 70k from the stock market. Right now, my portfolio is worth $984, so I have a long way to go. However, now that I have goals towards investing I can better determine which stocks to go for and my approach to investing in general. Going try my hand at being a more aggressive investor. Will be continuing to study investing and put in 100 dollars every two weeks.
Besides that, I focused on my side hustle of re-selling on E-Bay. I’m not making much money doing it but the small amounts I am earning are adding up. Also decided to go to Japan in April of 2021 so I’ll be saving up for that. Applied to a few jobs that will teach me new skills and hopefully diversify my resume. Was turned down by one but I’m hopeful that I’ll hear back from one of the others.
Get your goals down and the work will be easier as you at least know your starting point.
A shot of the Golden Gate Bridge that I took earlier this year. It was my first time walking across the bridge and the area around it. I had a lot of fun and it was a true test of combating my fears. I managed to successfully fight my fear of heights and walked across.
Finally, committed and bought a new lens for my camera. It is suppose to come on Thursday. I went with a 35mm lens that I can’t wait to test out. I believe that I am still going to buy a second camera but still doing research on it. Sometimes I wait longer than I should to buy something because I don’t like to spend money. However, watched a lot of videos yesterday and just decided to buy the lens.
Going to try my hand at writing film scripts and a webcomic that I have an idea for. Besides all that, I have just been working and exercising. I’ve lost a few pounds but I’m going to check my weight tomorrow to see if I’m actually made progress. After work today I went on a ride on my motorcycle and I felt so free from all the stress built up from working.
Watched two of my brothers graduation and it hit me kind of emotionally. They are growing up fast but also thought about my time in middle school and elementary. It’s got me motivated to pursue what I want to do no matter how much money I have to use to do just that.
I have a 4:30am shift tomorrow, so going to exercise and hit the bed before I get no sleep.
A portrait I took of my friend as we waited for a light to change in San Francisco. Working hard to improve my portrait skills in order to improve as a photographer and hopefully find myself in a studio. I like how his hoodie is, it adds a little detail in this shot. I’m proud of the progress that I’ve made with my photography but I definitely know what my weak points are.
Currently, I’m researching new lenses for my nikon D3300. I’m thinking about a 35mm or a 55mm. I’ve been using the kit lens this whole time and would like to see what I can do with a new one. Tomorrow, I will decide which one to get after watching a few YouTube videos. I want to get two lees, one for portrait photography and a versatile one for street, portraits, and travel. I’m planning to go on many trips once this pandemic is over.
Also make get a second camera, one good portraits or video. Looking to shoot short films and videos and I’m not the biggest fan of the video side of my Nikon plus would like a flip out screen. It’s something that I will decide soon after doing some more research.
Making a plan to do 23 & Me, so I can finally see my ethnic makeup. I’ve been told many things by family members in the past but none of them seem truly fruitful so I want to take the test. Plus I’ve always been interested in this kind of thing. I will order a kit in the upcoming weeks.
Things are starting to roll for me, I’ve started to instill discipline in myself and better my work ethic. I’m proud to say that my room is clean and organized. Started to work out again and I am watching what I eat. I need to just start writing again, seeking writing projects, growing my photography platform, re-design this site, design a portfolio site, put together a professional photography portfolio, publish a book, and learn Japanese. I’ve got a lot on my plate and I will get it all done as it’s what I truly want.
Working hard to improve myself and in effect my life. Decision making is hard but it’s a must.
I wanted to capture this subject but never could find a good angle until I took this shot. I like the texture but would go back and try to make a more interesting composition.
Had a semi-productive day. I sold off some of my shares in the stock market and holding out on buying anymore for a while. It’s tough to be patient but with the market how it is I’m going to have to be. Listening to top investors like Warren Buffet & David Tepper talk about being bearish which lead to my decision to hold what I got and adapt to the market.
Finally, finished reading The Prince by Niccolo Machievelli. It’s a very good political philosophy book that I would recommend to any one that wants to start a business or simply loves philosophy. My goal is to read 100 books this year and I’m at 18 right now. Next up will be No More Mr. Nice Guy by Robert Glover.
Was able to clean and organize my room some more. I have to re-design my desk which I’m struggling with. However, I’m trying to be more decisive and simply getting things done. Will be reading Marie Kondo’s “Joy at Work” to fix the work side of my desk.
I am proud to say that I have been able to fight off some doubt and stay the course. I’m working hard to battle my inner demons and improve my mind and body. Doing research on diets and exercises to maximize my time. I’ll also be studying video production and editing on top of photography and Japanese. I would like to direct films in some capacity in the future so I’ll be working hard to produce my own material.
Now’s the time for me to produce my own work and not expect to work half ass on the things I love. Will be disciplined and work hard towards my passions and hopefully have the life that I’ve always wanted.
Took this shot inside the Japanese Tea Garden in San Francisco with my Samsung J7 Sky. It’s a simple shot but it truly represents the atmosphere present in the garden.
I had a pretty decent day at work. I was able to get a lot done and make a decent plan for me to try to implement. I’ve made sure to cut out some distractions and cut off excess baggage that I don’t really need in my life.
Haven’t heard from any employers so I’m continuing to apply to new jobs. Was told today that everyone in my department will be getting 40 hours a week for a while. Which I hate but I love because I can earn a bit more money. I’ve started to make a schedule on things I want to buy in order to make sure I can take care of myself and stay independent plus financially secure.
I’m still in the stock market, slightly worried because of the negative news and some of the YouTubers I’ve watch have sold their stocks and bought new ones. I’m staying the course now as I really don’t want to take a loss on my investments. I’ll still put some money in every paycheck but I will be cautious and adapt to the market.
Looking for a new phone too. Haha I’ve been rough with the J7 to the point that the front camera is wrecked and the camera quality isn’t that good anymore, the speaker is shot, and there is a lag whenever I receive a call. Thinking about trying out an iphone but I’m still deciding on that.
Going to go all tomorrow as well. I’m off so I can have an even more productive day.
Shot of the entrance to the Japanese Tea Garden in San Francisco. I was able to take this shot as it was right after it opened. Luckily for me not a lot of people were there and I was taking one of my friends there for the first time. It’s a simple architecture shot of a place with such peace and beauty that’s hard to create. I like the empty space on the upper left side, it helps give the shot balance as below it the shot is crowded.
Finished 3 hours out of a four hour shift as I was just done with the people and the place. I have work tomorrow at 4:30 am, then two days off. I’m going to be applying to so many jobs and annoying people until I can find a job with a better work environment and a better life and work balance.
Still not certain where I’m going with this site or my life. I’m growing my audience slowly which is how it should be but at times I get impatient. Can’t say that I enjoy social media like Instagram & Facebook. It’s the shit in my sandwich that I have to tolerate to get anywhere as a photographer, writer, and whatever else I choose to pursue.
I know that I have to work harder and I’m doing my best in order to do that. I’ve been studying too much and need to focus on this site and my other endeavors. Now is kind of the perfect time since we can’t really go anywhere due to the virus. I’m tired of this life and I really need to make the effort to escape. So before I hit the hay, I’ll be reading, cleaning my room, organizing my room, exercising, answering questions I have for myself, preparing for tomorrow, and formulating a strategy to implement.
That’s it for me for now, I have to get things cracking. I’m thinking about experimenting with the format of my posts but we will see. Gotta go to new places!
Bruce Lee street art I captured on one of my trips to San Francisco. It’s okay shot, I remember struggling to not capture the story next to the wall. I will try to level up my editing game and get rid of the parking meter.
The title of this post was inspired by a Bruce Lee quote. “There are no limits. There are only plateaus, and you must not stay there, you must go beyond them.”. I find myself struggling with developing a fitness plan plus a career in photography and writing. I am still working hard to discipline myself, I have to change my diet and start exercising regularly before it’s too late.
I’m not going to allow myself to stay on this plateau for long. Going to be investing into a new diet plan and weights to improve my workouts. I’ve been thinking about buying a bike but there were no options at my store as people have been buying them like crazy. Will have to get back to practicing boxing as well. The key will be sticking with a new diet even when I’m at work.
I realize that what I want to do in life is going to take a hell lot of effort and hard work. I have to fully commit myself and pursue it everyday no matter what. I have to get it through my thick ass skull that I need to get uncomfortable and work. Nothing is going to fall on my lap. The time is now or I’ll forever regret it when I lay on my deathbed.