Smile

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As I was on my daily walk, I came across some random graffiti most likely from people who worked on the street. I don’t know if they did this on purpose, but this graffiti looks like a happy face to me. Not the best shot but the best shot I could have taken at the time. The message of the shot is to simple smile and find the good things in life to ebjoy.

Got to get out of your own head and open your eyes to the experience of life. I’m adding more responsibility to my plate and somehow I feel more mature. I’m sticking to a schedule as I’ll be busy for the next two days. I am going to be the cameraman/cinematographer for a short film Friday and I have a long walk to go through tomorrow. Then cram to get the required readings for a class before the deadline at 9am on Friday. I can’t say it will be busy but somehow I am enjoying responsibility and actually getting outside more.

Since I’ve been walking 3 miles a day, I feel healthier and happier. I do exercise regularly outside of walking. Its important to exercise for many factors and it’s important to eat right. I’m not always doing the latter so I don’t lose the fat that I want to easier. I’m trying and soon I can finally ture live my words I’m trying my best.

 

Have fun and live how you like,

David

Day 7 – Failure

Yesterday, on day 7th I failed to upload a post. I will not make any excuses and will accept this L on my part. I was sad apart this mistake, however, I promised myself it would never happen again. I’ve failed so much in life already at 26 years old and sometimes it feels like its too much. Self-doubt still haunts me like calling a teacher mom or being embrassed in front of the class because of the way you talk. I’m stronger than ever before because I can destroy the bad dialogue shortly after it begins. It’s not all the way gone, but I am working so hard on it. Always remembering my motto, baby steps into giant strides.

This photo showcases recent failure as I go back to explore old subjects with a similar style of dark/neo-noir images. I do like heavy shadows and darkness, I may not always get it right but I am doing work that I love.

Baby steps into giant strides,

David

Self Doubt is killingĀ 

Something I have struggled with for a long time. I’ve been told I have talent in writing poetry but never fully believed it. When I do actually believe it something happens that destroys my confidence. One factor of it is social media.  

I’m confident as a photographer because I take photos I like. But sometimes social media will tear at me when I don’t get any form of feedback. I’m the type of person who feels like something bad will happen when it’s silent rather than when everything is loud. 

I struggle with this so hard that I start to panic inside. I think I may quit at times but I don’t. I simply love creating too much to quiet. I love writing, doing photography, and all my other passions. Yet it doesn’t click inside myself that this is all I need. I simply have to tune everything out and do the work I love.

I think it boils down to fear as I put my heart into my work and I’m more sensitive than I would like to be. I can take constructive criticism and people telling me negative things but it’s worse when there is no feedback. That’s when I start to worry and when I start to crash. 

Working hard to build myself up,

David