The one thing about a nine to five job that I hate is not having time for anything else. Everyday but one did I fall asleep after work. I lose quite a bit of time because of that. I have had to sacrifice some things, but I will need to sacrifice some more. I need to realize I do have time to do what I want. I just have to get uncomfortable and push myself until the day I die.
At the moment, I’m focusing on my writing while doing what I can for my photography with what I have. It may take a few more checks until I can afford the one. I’m saving up for a Nikon D3300 or a D3400, depending on their cost when I have money. I understood what I have to do even when the path isn’t clear I at least know that I must take a step. So I’m focusing on taking one step at a time with my photography and writing.
I had to learn to budget better as well as how to buy what I need before what I want. That’s one reason why I’m not buying my camera out right. If I did, I wouldn’t have much left to do what I need to do. Even though a DSLR is one of those needs. So I should be able to take enough together after two or three if no big expenses get in the way.
So today, I’m starting to focus more on what I need and how I can better myself while working a retail job. I’m also searching for another job that’s more in the field that I want to be in.
When to Go?
I’m looking at my situation from a different angle than normal. Hence this photo taken at a low angle. This Hall receives a lot of traffic but not once have I seen bend down and take a shot in this building besides myself.
Anyway, I enjoy the interior design of this building. The floors are highly reflective and the windows let in good light. What you don’t see is that the architecture teachers made sure that the building was designed in a way that you can see some of the inner workings. I’ll try to capture a photo in the future to showcase the cold beauty of this place.
I’m exploring the option of buying the domain name for this website in order to showcase my work and have more control. Also exploring buying the domain name for a blog that I may monetize in the future. I’m still thinking about both options but I have given myself until tomorrow to think about it.
Common questions ring inside my mind. “Am I ready?” “Should I monetize a blog from the get-go?” Yada yada. Now that I have steady money coming in I have more difficult choices to make. I am leaning towards yes to the questions I asked myself. As I aspire to be a writer and a photographer. I don’t have official experience in either one. But if I do what I want I will get some experience that may get me to where I want to go.
After writing this I decided to say yes and I will set my plan in motion tomorrow after I get off work. I’ll do a bit more research and complete the cosmetic stuff. It takes little acts of courage daily to truly go where you want to go.
Besides that, I will be posting everyday on this blog from now. It will be challenging but it is apart of what I truly love to do.
About time to go.
Live free and happy,
Found myself lost as I was looking for a specific building. I caught this shot which proaprob shows that I wasn’t all too concerned about finding what I needed to. In the end, I was able to do what I had to do.
I love all the lines present in the shot as well as the shadows. I wish I captured this shot earlier, so that the light would be softer. I still enjoy the shot but I have room for improvement.
In two days, I walked around 9 miles. The more I condition my body the easier and faster it is to walk 4 miles + on one day. It makes each walk feel shorter than it is as well. I’ve been practicing visualization on each trip which helps me focus on where I want to go in life.
I’m waiting for my acceptance email to officially join a project. Doubt creeps in but I’m doing my best to change the way I talk to myself. It’s not easy but it must be done. I have found myself creating more and simply enjoying life more. I realized it’s a slow process after trying to quit so many times. Doing my best to become the strongest version of myself by getting into shape, both mentally and physically. It’s getting funnier just not easier. This is the path that I chose but one foot is still on the path of ruin that I allowed myself to walk through. Will take time for me to fully step off the path but I can feel my foot inching up a bit each day that I improve myself and do what I love.
Was resting after playing tennis for two hours when I took this shot. No one else besides my friend were in the building so it almost has an eerie feel to it as if it was an empty memory. Not my greatest shot but one that I enjoyed taking because of what occurred before, during, and after the shot.
Will be putting what I want to accomplish down on paper and commit myself to what I truly want to go after for. I would suggest the same for anyone who is lost in the world and is struggling to overcome their situation and their failures.
Exploring reality with philosophy and photography. Took this shot while I was preparing to leave the local library. It’s a place that I come to when I want to do some work without my back hurting from a bad chair and to get away from my four walls. I like this library as the second floor is for adults with the bottom floor for children. It makes it quiet and a more enjoyable reading experience.
I was interested in the light and decided to take this photo as I made my way down the stairs. It’s not always like this since it’s pretty rainy lately. On this day, I explored philosophy and my own mind. When I go to the library, I get work down. I might be there for three hours and get a good amount of work done in an hour and a half. I’m still exploring my options and the library helps wonders with that. I haven’t found the simplest solution but I am working even harder on it. I’m trying to remember the Bruce Lee quote “Feel don’t think” it’s harder than you may think to put into practice.
I completed a section of a free coding camp. I wanted to think about how I feel while doing it but I focused on doing the task and told myself I will think later. I don’t know if coding is my thing as I don’t feel nothing for it and have studied it in the past. I will continue to explore and will work even harder to get to the life that I want and to be the man I know that I can be.
Stay strong and feel,
Yesterday, on day 7th I failed to upload a post. I will not make any excuses and will accept this L on my part. I was sad apart this mistake, however, I promised myself it would never happen again. I’ve failed so much in life already at 26 years old and sometimes it feels like its too much. Self-doubt still haunts me like calling a teacher mom or being embrassed in front of the class because of the way you talk. I’m stronger than ever before because I can destroy the bad dialogue shortly after it begins. It’s not all the way gone, but I am working so hard on it. Always remembering my motto, baby steps into giant strides.
This photo showcases recent failure as I go back to explore old subjects with a similar style of dark/neo-noir images. I do like heavy shadows and darkness, I may not always get it right but I am doing work that I love.
Baby steps into giant strides,
Didn’t have the best day for the most part but it turned around when I simply decided it had to. I found more pain from inner dialogue than anything physical. It took me a while to come to grips of what I have been doing since the moment I graduated high school. That is allowing myself to run around in circles without an end to sight. I keep on returning to things because I wouldn’t make a true decision. I have had enough of it, there will never be a time where I don’t want to do a thousand things. I have to be okay with that and be willing to understand that the only bad decision I could make is indecision. That’s not me anymore, I am making small decisions everyday and sticking with them while preparing to handle larger decisions as time goes on to avoid my circle.
This photo truly represents what I was feeling a few moments before writing this post. I did not intend for it to represent what it does it jst so happened I took the right photo on the right day.