Sometimes the best teacher is yourself and a book. Other times it’s getting outside and living life. I’m anti-social introvert with the habit of talking too low and fast, which causes me to stumble over my words. I’m trying to overcome it, but I understand it takes time.
Every passion I want to turn into a career is a gateway to another thing and can be self taught rather easily. The more photos I capture pictures and experiment the better I get. The more I gain pencil mileage the better writer and artist I become. It’s a slow process that I will allow to consume me. As an iron addict once said, “you got to be obsessed with it” – CT Fletcher.
I realized a while ago I learn best when I am doing something hands on. I don’t like to sit in a classroom all day. This was also evident at my job when I was forced to watch videos all day. I actually learned more in one hour on the floor than I did while cramming a ton of videos.
Reading books is great for you, but you need to make time to write your own life story through your experiences. Your life is your story and only you can write it.
Experience and put it your mileage,
Doing what I’m suppose to do. I am having a hard time balancing passions, work, and college. I need to work on my body more so I can physically do more. It’s a real challenge since I’m on my feet 100% of the time at work and constantly moving. It does help me so in the end, I need to work on my diet and everything that I do after work.
I’m a photographer and a writer, I’ve given myself six months to show some results or I’ll set both down and move on. They will forever be my passions but I understand not every passion can be successfully made into a career. This is my one shot and I have to understand that and get uncomfortable to truly succeed in this field.
Time for sleep…Peace,
The one thing about a nine to five job that I hate is not having time for anything else. Everyday but one did I fall asleep after work. I lose quite a bit of time because of that. I have had to sacrifice some things, but I will need to sacrifice some more. I need to realize I do have time to do what I want. I just have to get uncomfortable and push myself until the day I die.
At the moment, I’m focusing on my writing while doing what I can for my photography with what I have. It may take a few more checks until I can afford the one. I’m saving up for a Nikon D3300 or a D3400, depending on their cost when I have money. I understood what I have to do even when the path isn’t clear I at least know that I must take a step. So I’m focusing on taking one step at a time with my photography and writing.
I had to learn to budget better as well as how to buy what I need before what I want. That’s one reason why I’m not buying my camera out right. If I did, I wouldn’t have much left to do what I need to do. Even though a DSLR is one of those needs. So I should be able to take enough together after two or three if no big expenses get in the way.
So today, I’m starting to focus more on what I need and how I can better myself while working a retail job. I’m also searching for another job that’s more in the field that I want to be in.
Walked four miles, played tennis, and ate some really good food today. Was able to treat a friend to a meal and got some nice frozen Greek yogurt. It was a nice change of pace from simply resting. However, today I will be having a rest day so my body can recover from work and tennis.
Got some good shots as well. Will be editing later today. Did some food and street photography. I normally don’t do food photography but decided to snap a few shots. Every shot is a learning process. I’m doing my best to learn as efficiency as I possibly can. Besides that, working hard at improving myself and my life.
Gotta Take the Shot
To get anywhere in life, you must take a shot at whatever you are trying to do. “You miss every shot you don’t take”. It takes dedication to the craft as much Michael Jordan and basketball or Al Pacino and acting. It may not happen over night, but at some point one of your shots will make it in.
I have to realize this as I prepare to buy my first DSLR. I started off with a Mario camera then to point and shots before using cellphone photography then evetually to a superzoom camera. I’ve used DSLRs before and I’m like an addict. I see one and I have to play with it. I get lost as I capture the world almost all people ignore through the unique viewfinder called my eyes.
I’m dedicated to my craft and willing to invest into my passions. Buying a domain for this site is just the beginning. I’m at the line preparing to take my shot as it’s my turn.
Take your shot,
As I walking to my college I peered down at something shining under the blazing sun. It was a pink iPhone badly bent and the first thing that came to my mind was “someone upgraded”. In this field, I always see discarded materials like bras, phones, food, mattresses, etc. It would be a beautiful place if this field was cleaned up.
I think a lot of people are lazy and unkind. I was walking into a Walmart and saw a woman throw some trash on the ground while she was inches away from a trash can. As someone who works in retail, I see a lot of disgusting behaviors. People will drink soda then leave it behind something or chew seeds and spit them on the ground. They may just be kind people outside of this, but these kind of behaviors are a clear indicator of a personality flaw.
This is the only planet we can live on for now and we trash it. I do my part to recycle and pick up litter. It amazes me at how many don’t do this.
Kindness and Work
Do not be nice as there is always a hidden motive. Kindness comes from within and doesnt stray like being nice. I have to smile at work and help people. I am required to do it, but at some point it became genuine.
Besides that, I was able to do more today after work than normal, however, I’m still struggling with adapting to my sleep schedule. I have to be in bed at 8 and asleep by 9:30 to get up at 3am. I only slept 2 hours which made work that much harder. It’s eight now and I’m finishing up what I need to do. Hopefully, I can knock out soon so I can be a better me tomorrow.
This photo can represent someone’s desperation after their dream shatters or someone’s resolve to get rid of their vices. I love photos that may have conflicting meanings depending on who views it. I won’t state my opinion further and allow you to decide what you believe.
I’m working hard to accomplish my dreams when I actually get down and do some work. I struggle to get to the keyboard but when I’m there I write away. I’m ridding myself of distractions and focusing on my passions.
Was able to write one thousand words in less than an hour in one sitting. Im writing about something that I love and I require myself to write that much on a daily basis. I fail everyday but I’m pushing myself to try. I have the dreams but I need the hard work. I’m developing it and will continue to develop it until it’s no longer a thought.
I don’t want to be 50 years old working at Walmart for terrible pay. I want to accomplish my dreams so I must work hard. I realize this but I do get lazy. However, as each day goes by I’m less lazy. Tomorrow will be the start of a new work ethic. I have something to prove to myself and I know I can do it. I just have to do it.
I’m off to do just that. Peace,
Not my best shot nor a great one. I simply enjoyed taking this shot as I was exploring the college. This shot shows off the industrial feel that I talked about in a previous post. I will definitely return to this location and take more shots.
Work and Rest
Been having a challenging time adapting to my new schedule. I work four days a week from 4 to 1pm. When I get off work I almost always take a nap. I’m doing my best to adjust but I’m still falling asleep as soon as I am done eating.
It is physical work so I can understand why I would be tired but I know that for the future I want to have I can’t just sleep when I’m not working. I’m still keeping up my fitness goals and making progress in life in other areas.
I still have a lot of work to do but I can honestly say that I am improving and on my path to the life I want and the path of the strongest version of myself.
Need to rest now. Keep working,
Today, I decided to upgrade to WordPress Personal plan. It cost more than I expected, but this move was to show myself that I am truly committed to this. I have one year to show myself what I can do. It will be a bumpy ride but I will not let the shadows consume me.
I was able to continue my 30 day+ streak of walking 2 miles everyday. I’m getting faster and actually sticking with it when I may want to skip a day. Can’t skip a single day. Got to keep pushing on and stay committed.
I don’t know where I am going and I have to be okay with that. I do know where I stand right now. It’s in a good place as long as I continue to improve and never get complacent. I aspire to be a creative writer and photographer a dream that many share with me. I, however, can’t say I’ll make it and they will not. I simply don’t know what will happen but life is full of uncertainty and I will accept the path I lay down myself.
I can only believe in myself and the love I have for my craft. I will bust my ass everyday to make sure I still at least a little bit of the light before it’s too late and I’m stuck at a dead end job.
I’ve jumped into the ocean but I’m still way above water. I will pick a direction and like Dory “just keep swimming”
Understanding that I must take ownership for my life and all the things I’ve done is something that truly has hit me since I started working this new job. I am cutting things out that I don’t need since I just don’t have any time as I am working four am to one pm shifts for four days a week. I only have about eight hours every day when I come home after work to do what I need to. I am still adjusting to the job so I often take a two-hour nap.
I really don’t want this job but I’m keeping it up until I am able to find a new job. Hopefully, it will be in a career field that I actually want to work in. For now, I am doing my best to do what I need to at work to make money and raise capital for the things that I truly want to do. It’s not easy but no one said that it would be. I am at fault and I accept that. However, I will not simply lay on back and accept life. I will raise to do the things that I want to do before I open my eyes and I’ve spent my whole life working this job.
My goal is to be able to take my photography and my writing and turn them into a full-time career. I’m starting by writing for an anime-based website for free and will be hosting my own anime/manga blog very soon while still maintaining this blog. I will probably buy a domain name for this site and make it truly mine. I have to do some more research but I will make a decision by tomorrow.
I am in the shadows now but with small acts of confidence, I will shine. As I love this!
Do what you love and want you can truly be great it,