Today, I decided to upgrade to WordPress Personal plan. It cost more than I expected, but this move was to show myself that I am truly committed to this. I have one year to show myself what I can do. It will be a bumpy ride but I will not let the shadows consume me.
I was able to continue my 30 day+ streak of walking 2 miles everyday. I’m getting faster and actually sticking with it when I may want to skip a day. Can’t skip a single day. Got to keep pushing on and stay committed.
I don’t know where I am going and I have to be okay with that. I do know where I stand right now. It’s in a good place as long as I continue to improve and never get complacent. I aspire to be a creative writer and photographer a dream that many share with me. I, however, can’t say I’ll make it and they will not. I simply don’t know what will happen but life is full of uncertainty and I will accept the path I lay down myself.
I can only believe in myself and the love I have for my craft. I will bust my ass everyday to make sure I still at least a little bit of the light before it’s too late and I’m stuck at a dead end job.
I’ve jumped into the ocean but I’m still way above water. I will pick a direction and like Dory “just keep swimming”
Making a drastic change that will be difficult, but truly worth it. I’m working a new job that will give me the capital to do my passions. Thus the pacifier photo, it symbolizes a new stage in life. I’m going to be able to be put all the plans that I have into action by doing sonething so simple.
I’m saving up to upgrade to a Nikon D3300, which is a basic entry-level DSLR. It will really help and I get public transport for free, so I will be exploring different areas of my city.
I’m doing my best to leave behind the legacy that I want when I close my book and someone else puts it to rest on a shelf that no one can reach until their time.
Baby steps to giant strides,
Despite how simple this shot is, I happen to love it. I love the soft shadows that seem to consume almost everything. Playing with shadows is great and combining it with architecture is really fun. There is a slight human element with the icebox and the leaves. I can imagine how I would make this shot better and will try to explore other options in the future.
This has been my style for s while now and I am looking to explore it with models. I love film noir films and other forms of entertainment that are not afraid to play with shadows. I was inspired recently by a film called The Eyes of My Mother. It’s not the best film by far, but it has cinematography that is simply beautiful. I explore shots when I watch films and find myself sometimes enjoying certain shots rather than the actual movie.
Another film that I enjoyed for its cinematography was The Outsider. It happened to feature another love of mine heavily which is Japan. It experimented with colors but wasn’t afraid to be dark. I could keep this up all day! I am starting to realize the truth that has always been under my nose. I was either too ignorant or I simply didn’t see in-between the lines.
Discovering the type of photography that I want to create, the type of stories I want to create, and the type of visuals I want to create have sparked something inside of me that I thought I lost. It’s a bittersweet thing called passion. I’m doing my best to create and to keep on creating in order to have the life that I want to.
My main goal is freedom, I want to be able to create full-time. So basically, my mantra is to create, compete, dominate, and Japan. It motivates me and I don’t have to say a lot to understand the depth behind each word. It’s a simple technique that I will employ every time I look into a mirror or whenever I have to do something that I may not want to but will help me on this path that I am trying to create.
I have to end it here, but just know that I will be making more posts and they will be longer than usual. Enjoy your life and take time to understand what gets you going.
As I was on my daily walk, I came across some random graffiti most likely from people who worked on the street. I don’t know if they did this on purpose, but this graffiti looks like a happy face to me. Not the best shot but the best shot I could have taken at the time. The message of the shot is to simple smile and find the good things in life to ebjoy.
Got to get out of your own head and open your eyes to the experience of life. I’m adding more responsibility to my plate and somehow I feel more mature. I’m sticking to a schedule as I’ll be busy for the next two days. I am going to be the cameraman/cinematographer for a short film Friday and I have a long walk to go through tomorrow. Then cram to get the required readings for a class before the deadline at 9am on Friday. I can’t say it will be busy but somehow I am enjoying responsibility and actually getting outside more.
Since I’ve been walking 3 miles a day, I feel healthier and happier. I do exercise regularly outside of walking. Its important to exercise for many factors and it’s important to eat right. I’m not always doing the latter so I don’t lose the fat that I want to easier. I’m trying and soon I can finally ture live my words I’m trying my best.
Have fun and live how you like,
Found myself lost as I was looking for a specific building. I caught this shot which proaprob shows that I wasn’t all too concerned about finding what I needed to. In the end, I was able to do what I had to do.
I love all the lines present in the shot as well as the shadows. I wish I captured this shot earlier, so that the light would be softer. I still enjoy the shot but I have room for improvement.
In two days, I walked around 9 miles. The more I condition my body the easier and faster it is to walk 4 miles + on one day. It makes each walk feel shorter than it is as well. I’ve been practicing visualization on each trip which helps me focus on where I want to go in life.
I’m waiting for my acceptance email to officially join a project. Doubt creeps in but I’m doing my best to change the way I talk to myself. It’s not easy but it must be done. I have found myself creating more and simply enjoying life more. I realized it’s a slow process after trying to quit so many times. Doing my best to become the strongest version of myself by getting into shape, both mentally and physically. It’s getting funnier just not easier. This is the path that I chose but one foot is still on the path of ruin that I allowed myself to walk through. Will take time for me to fully step off the path but I can feel my foot inching up a bit each day that I improve myself and do what I love.
Enjoying life as I took this photo while on a walk. I was simply experimenting with this shot and exploring what I can do with my phone. I love this shot as I simply love photography. The more photos I take the better I get and the more I critique my photos. I am getting happier and more confident as a photographer. My next step is to keep taking photos, edit better, and upgrade to a dslr.
Overall, I am enjoying the process. If I wasn’t in love with it, I would have quit a while ago. Sure, I’m not always happy with any of the photos I take on certain days. It’s normal but my overall love for creating and discipline will help me get through the bad moments. I didn’t reach 100% today but I will end up around 60% which is better than the normal amount of effort I give everyday. I’m taking time to build my body and mind so hopefully that will enable me to become the strongest version of myself.
Daring myself to do more self-portraits as an experiment. I have noticed an increase in my confidence in myself and my photography. I like to explore the world, I ofen allow myself to get lost. Often I don’t bring my main camera, as I often leave when it’s very bright outside. I will the nex time I go on an adventure.
I was able to move up a gear but I put myself back down another gear. I still made progress but not much as I would have liked. I see this as me going backwards to move forward. It is a saying that I discovered for myself when I used to play video games a lot in my teens. I simply have to force myself more and more while doing the best work I can. The key is that I need to suffer. I need to suffer to feel life, to suffer through my work, and suffer through my fears to move ahead in life. There have been many setbacks but I will charge on until I can’t go up anymore gears. When I die I want to be able to die happy for a cause and be carried out on a shield. Not as a symbol of saddness but as a symbol of strength, courage, and honor. I am a man and I am a warrior fighting for his cause until the day he dies.
Be a warrior and suffer,