Stopping a lot to ponder what really matters to me. I fully understand what I need to do and how it differs from what I want to do. Likewise with how I know what I need versus what I want to buy. I’ve done well in controlling impulses to buy things that I really want.
The main reason for this, is that I understand what I need. I’m a shy introvert but I understood I need to be more social. I have made better attempts at doing so and it’s working for the most part. To do photography and writing I have to break out of my shell to do what I love. It’s not something I want but it’s something I need to do.
I’m sacrificing the now for later and spending my money wisely while saving up. I plan to invest in the future, but will start with mutual funds for a while. I’m doing what I am responsible for and slowly but surely my life is getting better. I like that more and more in my room is becoming mine.
Be responsible and have fun,
Sometimes the best teacher is yourself and a book. Other times it’s getting outside and living life. I’m anti-social introvert with the habit of talking too low and fast, which causes me to stumble over my words. I’m trying to overcome it, but I understand it takes time.
Every passion I want to turn into a career is a gateway to another thing and can be self taught rather easily. The more photos I capture pictures and experiment the better I get. The more I gain pencil mileage the better writer and artist I become. It’s a slow process that I will allow to consume me. As an iron addict once said, “you got to be obsessed with it” – CT Fletcher.
I realized a while ago I learn best when I am doing something hands on. I don’t like to sit in a classroom all day. This was also evident at my job when I was forced to watch videos all day. I actually learned more in one hour on the floor than I did while cramming a ton of videos.
Reading books is great for you, but you need to make time to write your own life story through your experiences. Your life is your story and only you can write it.
Experience and put it your mileage,
Realized that I may walk alone but I am not lonely. I don’t have a true friend only people that I talk to or meet up with once on a while. I’m fine like that, I’m an introvert and my photography seems to showcase that.
I’m working on myself and I tend not to have time to do much else. I do spend time with my family when I can. Now, I’m exploring my options and diving deep into the technical side of my passions. Will be learning the inside and outside of cameras and technical photography terms. Also working on my grammar and sentence structure. A rough road is ahead of me, but I’m looking forward to the challenge.
Going to be looking for a new job as well.
Always be willing to learn as you are willing to teach. Peace,
Where am I going? Where have I truly been? I don’t know nor do I fully expect to. I want to fully know, but the harder I try the less confident I become. I am a writer, photographer, mentor, and artist. It’s out there in the universe, I’m trying but I could try even harder.
I haven’t brushed the lips of success yet. I do get discouraged but I keep going. I understand that if I stop then I might as well be a empty shell working a dead end job and never leaving to explore the world.
It’s hurt but that’s life. Traveling down the only road that I’ve ever known..
Doing what I’m suppose to do. I am having a hard time balancing passions, work, and college. I need to work on my body more so I can physically do more. It’s a real challenge since I’m on my feet 100% of the time at work and constantly moving. It does help me so in the end, I need to work on my diet and everything that I do after work.
I’m a photographer and a writer, I’ve given myself six months to show some results or I’ll set both down and move on. They will forever be my passions but I understand not every passion can be successfully made into a career. This is my one shot and I have to understand that and get uncomfortable to truly succeed in this field.
Time for sleep…Peace,
Walked four miles, played tennis, and ate some really good food today. Was able to treat a friend to a meal and got some nice frozen Greek yogurt. It was a nice change of pace from simply resting. However, today I will be having a rest day so my body can recover from work and tennis.
Got some good shots as well. Will be editing later today. Did some food and street photography. I normally don’t do food photography but decided to snap a few shots. Every shot is a learning process. I’m doing my best to learn as efficiency as I possibly can. Besides that, working hard at improving myself and my life.
Gotta Take the Shot
To get anywhere in life, you must take a shot at whatever you are trying to do. “You miss every shot you don’t take”. It takes dedication to the craft as much Michael Jordan and basketball or Al Pacino and acting. It may not happen over night, but at some point one of your shots will make it in.
I have to realize this as I prepare to buy my first DSLR. I started off with a Mario camera then to point and shots before using cellphone photography then evetually to a superzoom camera. I’ve used DSLRs before and I’m like an addict. I see one and I have to play with it. I get lost as I capture the world almost all people ignore through the unique viewfinder called my eyes.
I’m dedicated to my craft and willing to invest into my passions. Buying a domain for this site is just the beginning. I’m at the line preparing to take my shot as it’s my turn.
Take your shot,
As I walking to my college I peered down at something shining under the blazing sun. It was a pink iPhone badly bent and the first thing that came to my mind was “someone upgraded”. In this field, I always see discarded materials like bras, phones, food, mattresses, etc. It would be a beautiful place if this field was cleaned up.
I think a lot of people are lazy and unkind. I was walking into a Walmart and saw a woman throw some trash on the ground while she was inches away from a trash can. As someone who works in retail, I see a lot of disgusting behaviors. People will drink soda then leave it behind something or chew seeds and spit them on the ground. They may just be kind people outside of this, but these kind of behaviors are a clear indicator of a personality flaw.
This is the only planet we can live on for now and we trash it. I do my part to recycle and pick up litter. It amazes me at how many don’t do this.
Kindness and Work
Do not be nice as there is always a hidden motive. Kindness comes from within and doesnt stray like being nice. I have to smile at work and help people. I am required to do it, but at some point it became genuine.
Besides that, I was able to do more today after work than normal, however, I’m still struggling with adapting to my sleep schedule. I have to be in bed at 8 and asleep by 9:30 to get up at 3am. I only slept 2 hours which made work that much harder. It’s eight now and I’m finishing up what I need to do. Hopefully, I can knock out soon so I can be a better me tomorrow.
Not my best shot nor a great one. I simply enjoyed taking this shot as I was exploring the college. This shot shows off the industrial feel that I talked about in a previous post. I will definitely return to this location and take more shots.
Work and Rest
Been having a challenging time adapting to my new schedule. I work four days a week from 4 to 1pm. When I get off work I almost always take a nap. I’m doing my best to adjust but I’m still falling asleep as soon as I am done eating.
It is physical work so I can understand why I would be tired but I know that for the future I want to have I can’t just sleep when I’m not working. I’m still keeping up my fitness goals and making progress in life in other areas.
I still have a lot of work to do but I can honestly say that I am improving and on my path to the life I want and the path of the strongest version of myself.
Need to rest now. Keep working,
Today, I decided to upgrade to WordPress Personal plan. It cost more than I expected, but this move was to show myself that I am truly committed to this. I have one year to show myself what I can do. It will be a bumpy ride but I will not let the shadows consume me.
I was able to continue my 30 day+ streak of walking 2 miles everyday. I’m getting faster and actually sticking with it when I may want to skip a day. Can’t skip a single day. Got to keep pushing on and stay committed.
I don’t know where I am going and I have to be okay with that. I do know where I stand right now. It’s in a good place as long as I continue to improve and never get complacent. I aspire to be a creative writer and photographer a dream that many share with me. I, however, can’t say I’ll make it and they will not. I simply don’t know what will happen but life is full of uncertainty and I will accept the path I lay down myself.
I can only believe in myself and the love I have for my craft. I will bust my ass everyday to make sure I still at least a little bit of the light before it’s too late and I’m stuck at a dead end job.
I’ve jumped into the ocean but I’m still way above water. I will pick a direction and like Dory “just keep swimming”