Understanding that I must take ownership for my life and all the things I’ve done is something that truly has hit me since I started working this new job. I am cutting things out that I don’t need since I just don’t have any time as I am working four am to one pm shifts for four days a week. I only have about eight hours every day when I come home after work to do what I need to. I am still adjusting to the job so I often take a two-hour nap.
I really don’t want this job but I’m keeping it up until I am able to find a new job. Hopefully, it will be in a career field that I actually want to work in. For now, I am doing my best to do what I need to at work to make money and raise capital for the things that I truly want to do. It’s not easy but no one said that it would be. I am at fault and I accept that. However, I will not simply lay on back and accept life. I will raise to do the things that I want to do before I open my eyes and I’ve spent my whole life working this job.
My goal is to be able to take my photography and my writing and turn them into a full-time career. I’m starting by writing for an anime-based website for free and will be hosting my own anime/manga blog very soon while still maintaining this blog. I will probably buy a domain name for this site and make it truly mine. I have to do some more research but I will make a decision by tomorrow.
I am in the shadows now but with small acts of confidence, I will shine. As I love this!
Do what you love and want you can truly be great it,
Caught this little sign while I was on a walk. I don’t know where it is from nor what it is for. I am guessing that it comes from the hardware store across the street from this tree. Anyone, it was something out of place so I caught it before it disappeared.
Today, I started working from 4 am until 1pm. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be, but this job is not for me. I won’t quit until I have another job to take its place. I’ve been working there for four days and I already want to say goodbye to this job. I have met some wonderful people, but I won’t allow that to cloud my judgement when the time comes. After I finish this post, I’m going to be updating my resume and apply to some more jobs in a career field that fits me better.
With this job, I will have to sacrifice some more things and to work even harder to improve my passions. I hope to be able to get an official job in a creative field this year. Going back to the basics to me is that I need to focus on improving my passions, focusing on my health, get money, and do the things that I need to do like get a license and be fully independent financially.
It means that I must take the first step in each category as I go back to learn the basics so I can master them.
Be great and live the life that you always dreamed about,
Despite how simple this shot is, I happen to love it. I love the soft shadows that seem to consume almost everything. Playing with shadows is great and combining it with architecture is really fun. There is a slight human element with the icebox and the leaves. I can imagine how I would make this shot better and will try to explore other options in the future.
This has been my style for s while now and I am looking to explore it with models. I love film noir films and other forms of entertainment that are not afraid to play with shadows. I was inspired recently by a film called The Eyes of My Mother. It’s not the best film by far, but it has cinematography that is simply beautiful. I explore shots when I watch films and find myself sometimes enjoying certain shots rather than the actual movie.
Another film that I enjoyed for its cinematography was The Outsider. It happened to feature another love of mine heavily which is Japan. It experimented with colors but wasn’t afraid to be dark. I could keep this up all day! I am starting to realize the truth that has always been under my nose. I was either too ignorant or I simply didn’t see in-between the lines.
Discovering the type of photography that I want to create, the type of stories I want to create, and the type of visuals I want to create have sparked something inside of me that I thought I lost. It’s a bittersweet thing called passion. I’m doing my best to create and to keep on creating in order to have the life that I want to.
My main goal is freedom, I want to be able to create full-time. So basically, my mantra is to create, compete, dominate, and Japan. It motivates me and I don’t have to say a lot to understand the depth behind each word. It’s a simple technique that I will employ every time I look into a mirror or whenever I have to do something that I may not want to but will help me on this path that I am trying to create.
I have to end it here, but just know that I will be making more posts and they will be longer than usual. Enjoy your life and take time to understand what gets you going.
Found myself lost as I was looking for a specific building. I caught this shot which proaprob shows that I wasn’t all too concerned about finding what I needed to. In the end, I was able to do what I had to do.
I love all the lines present in the shot as well as the shadows. I wish I captured this shot earlier, so that the light would be softer. I still enjoy the shot but I have room for improvement.
In two days, I walked around 9 miles. The more I condition my body the easier and faster it is to walk 4 miles + on one day. It makes each walk feel shorter than it is as well. I’ve been practicing visualization on each trip which helps me focus on where I want to go in life.
I’m waiting for my acceptance email to officially join a project. Doubt creeps in but I’m doing my best to change the way I talk to myself. It’s not easy but it must be done. I have found myself creating more and simply enjoying life more. I realized it’s a slow process after trying to quit so many times. Doing my best to become the strongest version of myself by getting into shape, both mentally and physically. It’s getting funnier just not easier. This is the path that I chose but one foot is still on the path of ruin that I allowed myself to walk through. Will take time for me to fully step off the path but I can feel my foot inching up a bit each day that I improve myself and do what I love.
Blazing a new path in life through trial and error. Breaking old habits to glue together some better ones before I send myself to own personal hell. I don’t have faith in a higher power, I have faith in myself. I believe that I will win the fight against myself and soar in the skies once again as I did so as a child. I feel like I am on the right trail and will not look back no matter what kind of pain I am in for. I will fight and I will survive as I have the eye of the tiger ;p.
Have faith in yourself..you can do it,
Exploring beauty in it’s simple form. I had fun with this shot and simply like it for what it is.
A frustrating day but I pushed myself even after throwing up a bit. I’m working hard to develop myself and my life.
Going to update this blog daily again but with more focus on putting multiple photos in each post. This is a shot I took after walking past this area for a few days in a row. I wish I could have made the flower stand out more but I do like the shot.
I explored visual hierarchy with this shot. I enjoy this shot a lot, as it is probably the most creative photo I’ve taken with flowers as a subject. There are a few changes that I would make if I get another chance. I can see that my photography is growing gradually each time I view the photos for editing.
This shot makes me think about life whenever I see it. I enjoy the water droplets on the main rose. None of the flowers have bloomed yet so like my thoughts they are not fully developed. Don’t know much about flowers but I believe I am right. Exploring nature photography with different subjects like these.
Accomplished a bit but I am not satisfied. I failed twice today but I plan to make better choices from now on. I can only control my urges until I develop better habits. I have to face this challenge head on as I am the one that caused it.
Face your past and live in the present,
My favorite shot I’ve taken of this area. I can see the imperfections in this shot and know what I can do to improve it. I like the lines in the shot and the reflection of the trees. The more I look at it, the more I like this shot and start to see new things about it.
Walked 8 miles today, took a lot of photos on this enjoyable journey. I still have to upload them and edit them. Pushed myself a lot today and I feel that I’ve been stronger mentally and physically. I’m glad that I am putting in work to improve both of them as I’m finally starting to see changes and the positive results of them.
Dare yourself to get lost,
We often lock ourselves up and forget about what is truly holding us back from doing what we want. My desire was to express that in this shot. I might have made the lock and chains more visible, however, I do like how this shot turned out.
Breaking free from the past to focus on the present. Writing down what I am going for and commiting to a deadline. It’s going to a challenge that I can’t back down from or I will forever regret it. I will only fail if I don’t start, finish or quit. I will come out of this as a winner no matter what path I choose to create. When I’m the strongest version of myself I will be living the life that I’ve always wanted.