A shot of my cousin on our trip to Lodi a few weeks ago. I normally hate how he keeps his hair (he is lazy) but today it seems like his hair adds a cool effect to the shot. Need to brighten his eyes a bit but overall I’m getting better at portraits.
Phew, been a long day! Working hard on doing what I need to do and what I want to do. In the process of studying photography and starting a few projects that I was too lazy to attempt to do. Going to be publishing two private photo books for my friends. Sometimes I really just have to kick my own ass to get myself into gear. I procrastinate so much by drowning myself in the escapism of YouTube and Netflix that I don’t pay enough attention to my true passions.
Not going to say that I will suddenly get better but I am going to say that I am forcing myself to get into the right gear. Cutting out bad habits and replacing them with good ones and working on a schedule. For instance, I always take my time to update this blog but once I actually start writing a post I can go on and on. Just have to control my urges and do what I need to do.
A shot that I took in Lodi recently. This was a spur of the moment shot of my cousin as we explored the nature park around Lodi Lake. This shot is plain to me but I do like the look in my subjects’ eyes. I will go back to this shot and plan something better. I would like to take a tighter shot with more focus on the eyes. I will need to work on my backgrounds as well as my editing. I’m looking forward to the process.
I finished work late today but I was highly motivated to work on my passions. Thus I spent the last thirty minutes editing photos and writing this post. Currently, studying product photography before I jump back into portraits. I built my own makeshift light box to dabble with my Gundam models. My next post might be about that, we will see soon. Going to be taking this more seriously and get out of my comfort zone by taking more portraits of different people. I still have to get comfortable with my new camera (Nikon D5200) and with portrait photography but it is something that I really want to try yet it strikes me with fear so I truly know that is my next step.
I want to see what happens when I put 100% of my heart and effort into this. Even if I fail I’ll be proud of my effort if I gave it my all.
Always willing to take a shot even when I’m suppose to be “working”. Photography is a true love of mine and I’m always ready to take my shot. I over-edited this shot to try to see the end result. I obviously like it but I can see areas that I can improve like the floor and the walls closest to the subject.
Been working hard at my day job and not realizing how little effort I’ve been putting into my passions. I’m doing my best to incorporate more passion into my life while still getting a paycheck. Sometimes it’s tough as I’ve been getting overtime almost everyday. Even on my days off I just feel like resting.
I’m in the process of finding a new day job and redesigning this site. I’ll be dedicating more time to myself even as I’m on the clock. I experienced this at my last job but not going to allow myself to just float through life doing more work for others than myself. It’s time for a change and less resting.
I’ve got a few projects on my mind that I will be fleshing out pretty soon. Stay tuned there’s more to come!
Took my little cousin to Lodi Lake in Lodi, CA to check out a restaurant and to walk around the lake. I’ve been introducing more and more photography principles to him as he has an interest in the field. It’s an interesting process as we can bond over our shared passion for this craft. I handed down my super zoom camera to him and once he has a better grasp of photography and wants to continue to pursue it fully then I’ll buy him a beginner level dslr. However, I don’t want to spoil him so I’m going to make him work for it.
I really love this field! At times I am swarmed by thoughts of self doubt but I step back and give myself a moment. I’ll look at my wall, which has my photos taped on 1/3 of it and just reflect. I know I’m not the best but I’m not trying to be. I am simply creating the shots that I want to and trying to be the best me that I can be. If I never get into Magnum Photos then so be it. I want to pursue this field out of genuine love even if I fail. Really just want to see how far I can go and tell a few stories along the way.
Updating this blog is a hassle until I actually sit down and write. I sometimes want to take the easy way out and just update a photo then go back to whatever show that I am watching. But I really can’t do it and don’t really want to do that. I want to present the world with what I can truly do but I believe that at times I try to do as little as possible so I can have a reason as to why I failed. 2021 is my year and I’m going to face all of my bad choices in hopes to create the right choices for me.
Been taking Skillshare courses on relevant topics which has helped me grasped certain issues I’ve had in the past and I’ve gained a lot of practical knowledge from the site. I will continue to take classes that will help me on this journey of mine. I am in the process of re-designing this website and I’m going to be more attentive to it. I have a few photo ideas that I want to flesh out. So beware that I will be having updating this more with content. Going back to my prolific creation roots.
After a nice day and night in San Francisco. Me and my friends headed to Davis, CA to shoot some hoops and get some boba. This was my friends’ reaction to trying a new drink. We had fun talking about life and simply laughing as we learned about each other.
My coworker above slowly became my friend in a short amount of time. We simply clicked this to our mutual love of philosophy, creating, and music. We may have different tastes but we respect that and are willing to accept those differences. To me that’s how genuine friendships are created and I’m grateful for this one.
Happened to teach my friend more about photography and posing during this short trip. He was a willing student that asked good questions and seemed to grasp the various principles of photography that I taught him.
I’m not the best teacher but my passion for photography shines through despite my spur of the moment teachings that I cram a lot of things into. It was a good experience for the both of us. We walked away better creators in our respective crafts.
I’m fully pursuing photography, I’m about to purchase a new DSLR tomorrow. Still doing research about which one I will get but I have a general idea. Going to get the best one for me that will help me on my path. However, will not fixate on it and use the camera as another tool to further my pursuit of my passions. Working hard to develop the path that I truly want. It’s thought but I’m taking the baby steps necessary to do just that.
The worst thing about me is that I never truly given my all to something. I was afraid to fail or that was never good enough. So I looked for excuses to use for why I didn’t pursue something wholeheartedly. Read an article about the UFC Jon Jones who is considered by many to be the greatest MMA fighter of all time. He used drugs and alcohol as his prepared excuse if he ever lost any of his fights.
Even a man on top of his career field felt the need to come up with excuses. I really don’t want to live a half assed life full of regrets to match the repugnant excuses. It’s not too late for me to switch things around. I am doing just that.
2021 is my year. I’ve already got rid of some bad vices but I still have a lot of work to do. I’m chasing the greatest version of myself. In this year, I won’t plan it out anymore. I will simply carve myself into the being I have always desired to be. I’m reading, learning, watching, and listening to the world around me. Learning myself and truly following my principles.
No more excuses! I have a roof over my head, food in my belly, a car to take me places, and a bed to rest upon. I have all that I need to succeed. I just have to embrace the fear and make it my b$tch.
I love photography and expressing myself. Both require me to explore the world. This year I will pursue photography and becoming the best version of myself wholeheartedly. I will not stop even when I reach my goals. I’ll simply sit down and write out bigger goals.
Always saw these girls pose with their drinks in front of this flower wall at a local boba shop and had to poke fun at them. This is not the best shot that came of that experience but it is a decent one. I took it with my old Samsung J7 Sky. Would love to go back to retake it with a better camera but for a few reasons that won’t happen. Really shows me that I need to get the shot that I want so I won’t look back at the photos later consuming the imperfections.
Anyway, finally printed out my first photo book. It was a good experience that taught me a lot. It’s a simple process to print a book but there’s a lot that goes into it. I have a lot of work to do but I fully fell in love with the experience and plan to release an official photo book in the near future. The one I printed out was a private one meant for my group of friends.
I can honestly say that I am developing more confidence as a photographer. It’s been a long process for me due to being lazy and always doubting myself. But this is what I want to do and need to act accordingly. I have made some changes in my life and stop myself from doing things that don’t help me out at all by thinking to myself “how does this help me be the best version of myself?”. It’s helped steer me in the direction. It takes willpower but I decided to become a more dedicated man.
I’m making more time to create, edit, and upload my work while still learning thru Skillshare. I’ve taken three courses so far: T-Shirt Design Workshop, Food Photography, and Flat Lay Photography. I’ve been dabbling in food photography and have become more conscious of my food photographs. I haven’t dived too much into non-food flay lay photography but will be doing so pretty soon (probably after I finish writing this).
I will be posting at least twice a week on this blog and almost everyday on my social media.
I find comfort and risk in taking photos like this one. It is a simple photo of a darkened hallway but I find myself drawn to taking these kind of shots. I like the beauty of the darkness and gorgeous contrast of the light finding it’s place in the hall. I have a few photos on my bedroom wall so I can always look and reflect on certain shots. A lot of them look like this or have similar effects. I am proud of myself and proud of how far I’ve come from my childhood point and shoot days.
For a moment there I was struggling with self doubt but still kept my head up. I had to really take a step back and tell my self doubt that “I’ve got this”. It’s worked so far. It’s a struggle but I will continue to pursue my freedom. Sure, I’ll get lost at times but I will just pave another path until the day I can truly say that I am free and that I am home.
I’m happy to say that I am back on this site and will be continuing to work on my purpose. I have no excuses for being gone so long but I swear to myself that I will be active.
I was able to leave my previous retail job for a higher paying job with more benefits and more freedom. So I am in a better place than I was when I stopped writing here. Sadly, my Nikon D3300 was submerged in Folsom Lake so it’s out of commission. I’m working hard to get another DSLR but for the meantime will be shooting with my iphone 11.
It will be a challenge but my phone has a good enough camera to satisfy some of photographic urges. I’m simply trying to live my purpose and act accordingly. I can’t be lazy anymore and expect things to turn out well. Got to get off my ass and get to hustling. Returning to this blog is a simple step in the right direction for me.
Will be investing more in myself and less in entertainment. The only thing I can do is to prove it with my actions as words are just words.
A simple shot of good times to showcase new beginnings.
Been a while since I’ve updated this blog. I haven’t been taking photos sadly but that will change once I get an off day. I have a new job and will finally quit my retail job. I’m trying to learn how to edit better thru Lightroom and Photoshop. Will be taking a class on the subject matter on Skillshare very soon.
My new job is physically taxing but financially much better than my retail job. I’m hoping that Saturday will be the last time I clock in and out of my retail job. I’m going to miss some of my co-workers but I know that the job isn’t in my future plans and is truly toxic. I am acting on a six month plan that I made up a few weeks ago and so far it is working out well. There’s a lot for me to do but I’m going to push myself to get uncomfortable in order to be the greatest version of myself and to live a happier life.