Not bad, but I will have to go back and edit it some more to make the subject a bit brighter. Caught this while walking one day and took several shots of this shot before it disappeared. It’s normal for me to take shots like this daily. I take shots of random subjects and willing to fail in doing so. I treat it as a learning process and will continue to do so to improve.
I’ve been working hard and saving up money. I’m debating on buying Photoshop and/or Lightroom from Adobe. I will have to do research as I do need an editing software that can handle RAW photos. I have a good amount of photos that I need to edit so I will need to decide. My problem is I don’t want to make monthly payments on anything right now. The downside is that my photos will sit on my desktop just begging to be edited and uploaded. Will take some more time to consider my options.
Besides that, I am trying to improve my life by improving myself. Still looking for another job and hopefully one in photography or at least one with videography. Will keep my head up and enjoy the now.
Stopping a lot to ponder what really matters to me. I fully understand what I need to do and how it differs from what I want to do. Likewise with how I know what I need versus what I want to buy. I’ve done well in controlling impulses to buy things that I really want.
The main reason for this, is that I understand what I need. I’m a shy introvert but I understood I need to be more social. I have made better attempts at doing so and it’s working for the most part. To do photography and writing I have to break out of my shell to do what I love. It’s not something I want but it’s something I need to do.
I’m sacrificing the now for later and spending my money wisely while saving up. I plan to invest in the future, but will start with mutual funds for a while. I’m doing what I am responsible for and slowly but surely my life is getting better. I like that more and more in my room is becoming mine.
Be responsible and have fun,
As I walking to my college I peered down at something shining under the blazing sun. It was a pink iPhone badly bent and the first thing that came to my mind was “someone upgraded”. In this field, I always see discarded materials like bras, phones, food, mattresses, etc. It would be a beautiful place if this field was cleaned up.
I think a lot of people are lazy and unkind. I was walking into a Walmart and saw a woman throw some trash on the ground while she was inches away from a trash can. As someone who works in retail, I see a lot of disgusting behaviors. People will drink soda then leave it behind something or chew seeds and spit them on the ground. They may just be kind people outside of this, but these kind of behaviors are a clear indicator of a personality flaw.
This is the only planet we can live on for now and we trash it. I do my part to recycle and pick up litter. It amazes me at how many don’t do this.
Kindness and Work
Do not be nice as there is always a hidden motive. Kindness comes from within and doesnt stray like being nice. I have to smile at work and help people. I am required to do it, but at some point it became genuine.
Besides that, I was able to do more today after work than normal, however, I’m still struggling with adapting to my sleep schedule. I have to be in bed at 8 and asleep by 9:30 to get up at 3am. I only slept 2 hours which made work that much harder. It’s eight now and I’m finishing up what I need to do. Hopefully, I can knock out soon so I can be a better me tomorrow.
I enjoy capturing the simple beauty of life through roses. Their beauty doesn’t last long but it ages well until the day it dies. It doesn’t fight the natural law of living. This shot as reflects my love for playing with shadows and the film noir genre of films. One day we will all die and that is a fact of life. I will not fight death but I will fight life to live long enough to get my fill. It scares me but it is something that I’ve come to terms with.
I hope to someday be able to capture models using this method of heavy shadows. I find women from back in the 40s and 50s to be highly more attractive. Anyway, this will be a goal that I will accomplish soon. Hopefully I’ll be able to do it before this year is up.
I am here to tell stories/create, compete, dominate, and to travel. This is my self designed purpose that calls me into the put of fire called motivation, dedication, and discipline. It’s taken me a while to come to terms with who I truly am and what I actually want to do with my life.
Through this job I currently have I’ve been able to buy the things that I need. In a few weeks I’ll be able to buy a DSLR which I will use to improve my photography and my art. I did not pick an easy path but knowing me that’s the perfect way. This job had taught me a lot and I’m more motivated than ever to get out there in the world. I just have to take it step by step and someday I will realize that I am now running free on the path that I made for me.
Trying to admit my faults to become the adult that I need to be. To admit them is to grow and that’s what I need right now. I was exploring my neighborhood and found this pacifier on the ground. I tried to make the shot interesting as I took multiple shots from different angles. I like the little spiral of the strap leading to the pacifier.
I’m in the process of developing a plan so that I can make more progress in my life and so I know what to do almost every moment of the day. Been thinking deeply about my faults and ways to better my bad habits. It’s a slow process but I’m in this for the long ride. I know what I want to do but now I have to wait to make the moves necessary for me to rise to the levels that I know I was meant to be on.
My first mini-goal is to upgrade to a DSLR. I should be able to afford one in the upcoming weeks. Second, I will continue to write for a anime/manga based website before applying for a paid position. Third, will quit my current job once I find one better suited for me. That’s all I got for now but will be fine tuning it tomorrow. Not everything will be solved but I know where I need to be.
Caught this little sign while I was on a walk. I don’t know where it is from nor what it is for. I am guessing that it comes from the hardware store across the street from this tree. Anyone, it was something out of place so I caught it before it disappeared.
Today, I started working from 4 am until 1pm. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be, but this job is not for me. I won’t quit until I have another job to take its place. I’ve been working there for four days and I already want to say goodbye to this job. I have met some wonderful people, but I won’t allow that to cloud my judgement when the time comes. After I finish this post, I’m going to be updating my resume and apply to some more jobs in a career field that fits me better.
With this job, I will have to sacrifice some more things and to work even harder to improve my passions. I hope to be able to get an official job in a creative field this year. Going back to the basics to me is that I need to focus on improving my passions, focusing on my health, get money, and do the things that I need to do like get a license and be fully independent financially.
It means that I must take the first step in each category as I go back to learn the basics so I can master them.
Be great and live the life that you always dreamed about,
Making a drastic change that will be difficult, but truly worth it. I’m working a new job that will give me the capital to do my passions. Thus the pacifier photo, it symbolizes a new stage in life. I’m going to be able to be put all the plans that I have into action by doing sonething so simple.
I’m saving up to upgrade to a Nikon D3300, which is a basic entry-level DSLR. It will really help and I get public transport for free, so I will be exploring different areas of my city.
I’m doing my best to leave behind the legacy that I want when I close my book and someone else puts it to rest on a shelf that no one can reach until their time.
Baby steps to giant strides,
I love the architecture at and around Sacramento City College. I love going there when there’s not a lot of people and just snapping away. Whenever I have my camera with me I often take a few shots of a subject from different angles. It was a bit difficult to fit the whole building into the shot with my phone. I’m glad I took the time to be patient and experiment.
Took today to reflect on somethings before I start to get busy. I was able find something to aim for, things to sacrifice, and goals that can drive me to accomplish them. I still have more things to think about before the day is over but I’m not rushing it. Slowly but surely I’ll understand what I need to do.
Have fun and reflect,
As I was on my daily walk, I came across some random graffiti most likely from people who worked on the street. I don’t know if they did this on purpose, but this graffiti looks like a happy face to me. Not the best shot but the best shot I could have taken at the time. The message of the shot is to simple smile and find the good things in life to ebjoy.
Got to get out of your own head and open your eyes to the experience of life. I’m adding more responsibility to my plate and somehow I feel more mature. I’m sticking to a schedule as I’ll be busy for the next two days. I am going to be the cameraman/cinematographer for a short film Friday and I have a long walk to go through tomorrow. Then cram to get the required readings for a class before the deadline at 9am on Friday. I can’t say it will be busy but somehow I am enjoying responsibility and actually getting outside more.
Since I’ve been walking 3 miles a day, I feel healthier and happier. I do exercise regularly outside of walking. Its important to exercise for many factors and it’s important to eat right. I’m not always doing the latter so I don’t lose the fat that I want to easier. I’m trying and soon I can finally ture live my words I’m trying my best.
Have fun and live how you like,
Tired of living life as I have been, I can see where I will wind up if I continue to be lackluster at life. This photo represents my mind state and the path I appear to be on. It’s not easy to change but I am slowly. I am swarmed by doubt and I’m tiring. I need to try harder and harder until the day I die. I can never let up or I will end up with nothing as a nobody in life.
It has it end and it will right now. I am going to keep my head up and do what I have to do to be where I truly want to be. I can’t be this person anymore, like the picture above there will light in my life.
Keep on movin’ on,